SOULMATES

Signals from God

Today is Jarel's class performance art show at school.

"Well, let's get up to school. "

"Yes, "my son was very excited to wake up from his sleep.

"Let's take a shower first. "

"Yes. "

Before going to school I sent a message to Ditto because I remembered Jarel had to start the list of schools Early this year means, let later the course will not be together with Primary School, Kasian pasir examnya.

"Jarel wants to be enrolled in the Early School now what is the direct SDIT next year? If the list of Diniyah schools means it must be this year, so that it will graduate Diniyah first Continue to graduate elementary school. Neighbor said yesterday if you want to enter the SDIT next year the list must be this year, can not be ngedadak his quota is full. "

I asked Ditto's opinion because Jarel is still Ditto's son at any time. I used to intend to enter Jarel into a favorite SDIT in Sukabumi so that when SMP can directly enter the pesantren and become Hafiz qur'an. It turns out that outside the plan, I parted with Ditto and the issue of child education was no responsibility Ditto in the divorce agreement. Maybe how the provision will be, even if I can not afford the cost of SDIT Jarel school itself, I input elementary school and Diniyah only. Hopefully I can afford it myself, I do not want and will not hope to the creatures again, because for example first when I ask for help car problems, no one wants to be with me, no one wants to be with me, I was looked down upon by many people. Even by the person in question himself, especially now Jarel's problem, maybe if I ask for help to the man who will be my future husband, maybe, maybe he will run to the north pole and will not be seen again the trunk of his nose.ha..

It is better for me to fight alone, I am sure that Allah will always help me, because Allah is the bestower of sustenance, not like humans who are both recipients of sustenance from God as well.

"Find more accurate info. Ask her to go straight to school?"

"SDIT right? "

"Yes. Ask for the brochure or call first. If the School was before Elementary School, right?"

"No, the same religious school with the Elementary School, both 6 years. "

Well basic, what kind of father Ditto, to send his son to school did not know, because he used to not go to religious school, although Handoko's father was strong religion, but other things with Ditto. Because of his free association when undergraduate college to get a degree takes 9 years. That's why God has the best plan to separate Ditto and me now. Because Handoko's father entrusted Ditto to me, not the wife who was entrusted to the husband. I haven't studied yet, all I see is material.

From mistakes in the past teaches us to learn to improve ourselves and make ourselves better for the future.Now I just understand, I just understand, it turns out that the responsibilities of an Imam in the household are very heavy, he is the one who determines the household sakinah mawaddah warahmah by always teaching the wife and reminding the wife even reprimanding the wife when making mistakes and being an example for her children later. To cherish each other, to love, to complete each other.

As strong as I can survive if a Nahkoda leaves still the ship is yawning, although not for long. I try to rise from the rubble of a building hoping with one hope that God will always be there and will always help his servant in any circumstances and it is evident that God's help is very close.

"When I get the news again."

"OKs. "

"Jarel is nari ga? " Ditto asked

"So. "

I sent Jarel a picture at school

"Tuh his children are new at the entrance to the class, his art show in the classroom. "

"Oh yes. "

The art show begins. Children display their own creations and talents. It's funny to see kids dancing. So miss childhood, I did not experience kindergarten because back again my parents did not have the cost for my Kindergarten School. Another case with my brother he went to Kindergarten in the 90s. Because my father was successful at that time, people say he was a big boss, but I don't know because I didn't experience it because my father was broke before I was born. I went straight to elementary school in 2000, when friends were asked what the breakfast menu was. They say all kinds of good food, I casually say, rice and fried brick salt with shallots, because brick salt was not the powder salt that it is today. Cool little Zara..

After the series of art performances were completed, Jarel was suddenly called first to the front.

Other mothers ask me.

"Jarel was called to the front anyway, what-dapet what? "

"Oh yeah, I don't know either."

"What yes, 6 people ahead. "

Mothers are always putty, I am the mother who is also ordinary.

"Yes, the teacher will say what. "

Turns out the best ranking cup in the class. Thank you beyond my expectations, never dream and hope too. Jarel Gets 1st in Class. Thank you, I am so grateful and proud of my son. Thank you so much my son you have made my mother proud without me expecting, because what I fear about the incident will affect Jarel's mental state. Thank God you can survive and go through everything well with my mother, you are indeed an encouragement and healer for me to continue living.

I sent a picture of Jarel holding a bouquet of books, trophies and a charter of appreciation to Ditto.

"Jarel 1st rank."

"Wiihhhh pinter, constantly improved yes his achievements. Later if you get ranked again, I love the gift again." Ditto retaliated.

Not to forget I also sent Jarel's photo to A Rangga.

"Jarelle. " With emoticons laugh.

"Alhamdulilah. "a Rangga immediately replied to my message, maybe again rest so that you can immediately reply to the Whats app message from me, thank you once.

Shortly a Rangga directly put up his childhood photo as a profile photo of his Whats app. I didn't use photos.

I sent a video of Jarel dancing to a Rangga.

"Good funnier to remember childhood. "

A Rangga did not reply to my message.

A Rangga if you feel your life is heavy, hopefully this funny video of children can be an encouragement and a remedy for your longing for father. I'm sure your dad will smile there if he sees you happy. I don't know what your true situation is like, whether you are happy now or not I don't know, which is clear if you are indeed happy at this time I am also happy. But if you don't feel happy living like a child, it's okay sometimes adult life is painful tiring, let alone think of precocious as my experience used to be. there are times when he wants to be like a child again, laughing, cheerful, crying for a moment and then returning to laughing. Without any burden that is what I feel now.

I feel that whatever I do now makes me happy I will do even with simple things. Like street food snacks in front of Elementary School, snacks with elementary school children I am not ashamed. It made me able to make myself happy. Because happiness is simple.