SOULMATES

Rest

At dawn I woke up, I cooked fried rice for my father to have breakfast. See the money in the wallet stay 20 thousand more because last night dipake pay parking 11 thousand.

I sent a message to a Rangga.

"A Rangga can help ga? "

No reply, Yes it's nothing not yet awake maybe.

I wake my son up, man,

"Jarel get up, let's go to ua's house. Mama's going to the hospital again. "

My son woke up but his eyes were still bristling, because his sleeping mallard was also 00.20 in the car. I grabbed him and put him in the car.

I put Jarel in my brother's house.

"Bring ga money?" brother asked.

"Bring 20 thousand. " while grinning from the car.

"Teteh also has no payday, still a week away."

"Yes already, this also wants to go to the mas store selling mother earrings. I'm leaving, yes, take jarel. "

"Yes, be careful."

I passed by, headed to the hospital to give my father breakfast.

Arriving in the ICU hall I saw my father waiting outside, I gave him fried rice and drank it.

"Semalem drinking water abis, fasting aja."

Because only bring one small flask, not staying in the money anyway. Because there is no money.

"Kasian, I'm sorry to eat the fried rice first."

"Eating yet?" Dad asked me.

"Not yet, later. How's mom?"

The ICU door opens and the nurse comes out. I tried to get in.

"Where's mom now?"

"His breath was no longer. Aki where?"

Nanyain's mother's father.

"There's outside."

Mother started babbling, meaning it has started to improve her condition.

"Why don't you come here, why are they outside, Statue is not. Every once in a while looking here might take nothing, it can't be relied upon."

"After being told. The door is also not often open so it is difficult to enter. There are also nurse guards. It's nothing."

I went to the mas shop first yes, sell mother earrings.

"Yes, I'll go home and get some soft bread."

"OK."

"I got out of the parking lot paying 4 grand."

I see the money in my wallet is pathetic.

In front of the store, it was not open yet. I'm waiting, hungry and my stomach hasn't had breakfast. I saw my wallet, sad. I will have to pay for parking again. I bought 5 thousand fried foods.

I sat in front of the mas shop, eating fried food. There's a call from cousin sister.

"De where? What is your mother now."

"Again in Sukabumi a want to sell mother earrings, Alhamdulilah already can chat."

"Thank God, I'm sorry I haven't been able to go to the hospital. Cepet healed ya sayin to Mom."

"Yes a thanks for the do'a."

I waited for half an hour, The shop was finally open. I went in and got 530 grand. Had enough to pay the fine BPJS. Hopefully enough. Oh, God help me.

I saw the phone at 08.08, I went straight to the hospital to pay the fine BPJS.

I'm approaching the cashier, though,

"Bu want to ask about the hospitalization of Nani Semalem's mother."

"Oh yes, the administration of inpatient directly ma'am next door. "

"Oh yes, thank you."

I approached his inpatient administration desk.

"Pa wants to ask for a fine BPJS Nani's mother. "

"Yes ma'am please sit down, wait a minute I check first. "

"Yes pa. "

I waited with my heart wondering, how much? enough of the money?

"It costs 470 thousand, after this there are no maintenance costs to be paid again, all are borne by BPJS. Unless there's a drug to buy that's not covered by BPJS."

I was shocked, but thank God there is still 60 thousand left over.

"Pay it can be here, can be at the post office and bank Mandiri. Since this is not for hospitals, it's for direct BPJS."

"Here it is." I gave the money.

"By ma'am." It's 30 grand change.

"Thank you pa. "

God, where else should I look for money.

"You can know how many days you have to stay here. "

"Don't want to make this hospital good, ma'am, but here is not limited to the day ma'am, until the patient's condition is completely healed and can only be allowed to go home. "

"Yes pa. "

Haduh, I have to find money where to supply father's food while waiting for mother. The store is open to sell anything. Seeing her stuff makes me want to cry.

I went back to my mother's ICU room, gave my mother's order of bread, I asked.

"Where has the fine been settled? "

"Udah. "

"why? "

"He. he. 470 thousand " while laughing.

"How much more money is left. "

"40 thousand " while laughing also me.

"Where else is the money going?"

"Ga tau." I gnawed at scratching my head, dizzy as well.

"Try asking your sister, say borrow a chira bracelet. Make a feeding handle as well."

"Hah, keep going back to Sukabumi, to the mas store again. "

"Yes." Yeah."

Ok if so, ready. Today I want to move professions such as public transportation driver, back and forth looking for rupiah.

"I go home first ma'am, if there's anything call a sister. "

"Yes. "

I went out to the second floor parking lot, the corner of the parking lot is also like freefall. Many cars that have been victims are also scratched into the wall. I should always be careful.

Suddenly I stopped in front of your shop A Rangga. Should I come down, ask for your help. Try it first, dapet or not his business later.

I got out of the car, approached A Yuda.

"A Rangga ga work?"

"There's tea in the barn. "

"OK."

I'm going straight in.

You look at me and say hello slowly.

"Hey."

Wow bad feeling to hear the tone and his face like that, A Rangga is not doing well. Not like yesterday.

"A Rangga here. "

"What?" you don't see my face just looking down at the bon you're holding.

"Seek help can."

"Why?"

my heart speaks, hey I'm here. Look at it for a minute, don't be like that.

"Borrow money has ga? "

"I never hold money, every payday is also directly given to mama. "

My hunch is right, you're not okay a Rangga. I noticed your every move, why don't you dare to talk it out by looking at me. You just looked down at the bon and the stuff. You don't want to see me talking to you.

I followed you in the back.

"Well, I'm looking for something else. I'm home yes, spirit. "

I patted her on the shoulder and tried to encourage her. I also walked out to my car.

Maybe it is true that my mind so far, A Rangga is only work and work without enjoying the results to make myself happy.

The responsibility to support the family is huge, I know that. Because my position is the same as that. All the family is counting on me, as it is now. Sometimes I feel my life is hard, but on the other hand I am happy to see the people around me happy.

It's just that now I understand, there are times when I should be able to make myself happy besides I think about the happiness of my family. Not selfish, but as a tribute to ourselves if all this time we have helped us stay strong, love ourselves because we are not robots.