SOULMATES

Papa's?

As Zara focused on her efforts, focus on taking care of Jarel. For some reason, Rangga never came out of Zara's memory.

Every day, I think about it every second. Rangga's shadow never disappeared from memory. Even every night Zara always dreamed with Rangga.

Oh my god, what should I do. I tried to not remember it anymore. Because if we have feelings for someone before marriage, it is a sin. But why is my love for Rangga getting stronger and stronger. Though I know Rangga loves Roses not me.

But I still love him.

Until my mother thought I was crazy, until my mother thought my brain was problematic and needed to be fixed. I don't understand, I've never loved someone like this before. Even to Ditto my ex-husband I've never felt this kind of feeling.

Another case with my feelings for Rangga, since the first time I met first until now, this moment my feelings remain the same. And I'm sure he's the best to be my best companion if only he could. I would be the happiest and luckiest woman if I could be with her. Love and happiness are simple.

God was so good to me, God made other choices that came into my life. But no one can open my heart. No one can make me like him. No one makes me comfortable. One by one the men who tried to approach by themselves fell, began to move away and eventually disappeared.

Maybe because my meeting with Rangga taught me many things, made me aware and changed into a better person. Without meeting Rangga I would not have known Love, sincerity and patience. Without meeting Rangga there would be no novel. I know Rangga's hobby of reading novels is my hobby of writing novels. I presented my novel as a special gift to her. I made Rangga the lead role in my novel. Hopefully Rangga does not hate me, and hopefully Rangga likes my novel.

After meeting Rangga I saw myself in him. I look in the mirror and fix myself. I know that human beings may not do good forever and will not do bad forever. There are times when we make mistakes, there are times when we are caliph. Because no human is perfect. Even between couples, the goal is to complement each other's shortcomings. Every weakness and weakness can make a Love that grows in the heart.

I did not dare to wish Rangga back because it was something impossible. Although Rangga always said Kalo soul mate will never be exchanged and one day definitely met at the right time. Only God knows what our destiny will be like.

Let time answer everything. Either Rangga and Zara are united or not, only God is all-powerful. What is clear here is that Zara learned the true meaning of Love, Love that does not require validation, Love that does not expect a reply, Love that does not have to have. True love never hurts. True love is a gift that God gives to the heart.

If one day she came back, Zara would have accepted it with a very happy feeling. Because Rangga was so perfect in Zara's eyes despite his flaws and advantages, Zara had already learned to understand and accept it all.

I always remember the words of Rangga

"He who knows, only God knows the heart. Let it flow like water first. If there is a way, there must be an answer. So now, just go first. God determines the soul or not. "

"We focus on each one first. After all, if you're a soul mate, where will you go. Enjoy and face it. Maybe you can get better than me. Who knows the fate of God. "

I can only pray

"O Allah, I leave all my business to you, my soul mate, my business, my health, my son's future. You know what is best for my life. I can only live it as best I can and I return the end result in your hands, God. I am ready to accept whatever you do for me. Keep leading me to always be in your path. Warn me if I make a mistake, rebuke me if I am negligent of your orders. I am sure that the happiness that I never imagined will be present to me, O God. Don't ever leave me, for only you have always looked after me and never let me down, God."

May I be given smoothness and ease in running my business even though with various limitations. I'm sure I'm capable even though I'm alone. There is a father who always helps and supports my efforts.

Let the problem of God's soul mate determine. Because if it's time I'm sure I'll find that true love. Because God is loving and loving. God created everything in pairs. Even though I failed. I'm sure someday there will be men who love me sincerely, making me the only one. Respect for loving and caring for me until old age. Become a true love partner of the world and the Hereafter.

Being a father figure for my son, who loves my son like his own son. Because not only love his mother but also have to be able to accept Jarel boy that I love very much. Being a priest to me, led me to teach me and counseled and reminded me when I made a mistake as a wife. I want to be a good wife, a good wife who is obedient to you and will always respect you, whoever you become my priest. May we be a sadinah mawaddah warahmah family. That's what I've always dreamed of and hopefully things can someday come true and live happily.