SOULMATES

The bitter past

As usual, Alka chose a menu with toys, and ice cream.

Mr. Min, choose the chicken and rice menu, with mineral water.

I chose the burger menu. Because it was full to eat a serving of ketoprak.

I looked at Alka deeply. If only Alka knew, who I met earlier. Alka had to be separated from her biological father, because those who wanted me and her father were separated. Suddenly tears came to see her. Alka who is independent, is eating with greed. I can't tell this to Aa. I have to keep his feelings. Because it's the past, and I shouldn't remember, but don't blame me, the person from my bitter past, for coming uninvited.

"Mama don't cry" he said.

My son was watching me.

"Dear boy,"

"What a no-nonsense thing"

"Don't love, mama is moved, Brother is grown, can already eat alone. Pinter once mama's boy"

"Kan brother, already want to have a grandpa. it's in the stomach of the mother. Dedek mamnya use what, ma?" tanyakanya.

"It's mama's mamam burger, so the grandpa's mam burger, too"

After eating, we headed to a supermarket, suddenly I wanted to eat chocolate and snack. Alka was very happy, because she also took food that I usually forbid.

When I got home, I felt heavy. Finally I decided to rest in my room, and Alka slept in her room.

Before going to bed, I take the time to pray dzuhur first.

That afternoon I had a dream like seeing the deceased in the past, joking with Kekey. The pain made me feel tight and I ended up crying.

"Honey, Ineke. wake up baby"

I was carried away in that dream,

"sad. babe..get up"

I woke up, and I saw Aa in front of me still wearing her white coat.

I cried and hugged him.

"Why baby, what dream? Drink first"

the question was then he took the bottled mineral water in his briefcase, and thrust it at me.

"Thank you, A" I said.

"When do you come home?"

"Newly, and when entering the room, Ine was hiccuping. So sad. Ine what dream?"

What am I supposed to say? But, honestly, we have to keep it, we have to take care,

"Udah, take ablution first yes dear, pray. Must not be praying Asar right?"

he said that he was still sitting on the edge of the bed, and pecked at my forehead.

Aa watched my every move.

After the prayer, Aa invited me to sit on the edge of the bed, while she slept.

I kissed the back of his hand.

"Required?" tanyakanya.

i'm nodding.

"It's beautiful to wear a mukena."

"Oh.. only when wearing mukena? Okay" I said hump.

He laughed, and hugged me.

"Here, beside Aa."

take her and she hugs me again.

"Ine is beautiful, whenever, in Aa's eyes, Ine is the prettiest woman Aa has ever seen"

"Gombal"

"Wow, how many snacks that, it's not healthy to buy that, baby. If it's gapapa chocolate." he continued.

"Ine wanted to, was eating the same Alka, Ine stopped by the supermarket. It looks so good."

"But not so much, dear" he advised

I'm nodding.

And he's smiling. The dimples of her cheeks were visible when she smiled, very sweet.

"Get started, that's a ngeliatin. Why, it seems there is something" he said that has started suudzon.

"Dih" I said

"Wake there, ex-hospital, then bring the virus again" I continued.

"Usually gapapa, usually hugging when Aa comes home from work" then he opens his shirt, visible field chest.. And i'm..

Ah. what the fuck.. I finally made the bed, and pretended not to see what he was doing.