SOULMATES

Monsters

Suddenly there was an incoming message on whats app, apparently from my ex-husband Ditto,

"Ga in acc, 'cause there's pinjol. How's dong? "

"Pinjol?? The timing?? "

"Yes, a lot."

"Yes it's just a tweet, a month-a-month means. In late December, there is still time. THR when? no car installer yet."

I don't know what kind of loan he's got on acc, or just the reason.because I don't know what he's got.

"Ga know, I'm also confused thinking about paying off debt, spending on cars."

I laugh.

"Whoever to the bank? "

He disappeared not returning my message.

I only hope in God, because only God is the bestower. I will continue to strive and pray to meet all the needs of my own life, my son and my father and mother.

My days are filled with learning and learning, learning to understand life, learning to be patient.

I saw my son, he was the one who made me have to be strong through all this.he still needs me to survive and continue fighting for a better future for him.

I made a video on my youtube channel about my son, there is not much I can do while waiting for the store. Because for shopping even the money I still collect to pay my car installments.

I can only be silent, praying and contemplating.

The video uses photos of my son with the instumen of the mother song.

A little letter to my son.

Jarel Arsenio Ariwibowo

Dear My child,

After you grow up, I hope you can understand all this.

I'm sorry, son,

I can't be the best mom for you.

Forgive mom, please,

At your early age, you have to experience all of this.

I never thought, Mother,

Your feelings are so sensitive.

Never hate your father,

He left us, indeed,

But he's still your real father, son.

He taught us the meaning of life,

Happiness but also loss.

My boy,

You are a source of strength for my mother,

You are the reason for mom to rise up, and step into the future.

My boy,

Believe,

Someday, you will be a great man.

A man full of responsibility.

Smart, independent and noble.

Be a child of Sholeh, and be useful to others.

Thank you so much my son,

from the mother who always loved you

After I uploaded it on youtube and I shared it on facebook, many of my friends liked it.

and they prayed for me again.

"Whatever the problem may God give always happiness. God willing, God's plan is more beautiful behind human reason.

"Fix the spirit of tea, All problems must have a way out, the important thing is that we remain sincere. "

That is a small part of your Do'a-do'a phrase given to me. Thank you for your kindness, I am so grateful to have so many friends who care so much. Thank you so much, your Do'a-do'a means so much to my life.

I also got a word that became a motivation and reflection for me to never give up.

Be patient in emigrating, even though the exam feels very difficult.

"O Allah, perhaps your servant's test is nothing compared to the test that the Prophet and his companions had experienced at that time. The Prophet asked Allah, When will this test end?

Allah said: "Is not the help of Allah near? " the meaning is

The more severe the test we experience, the closer we are to God's help, the second phase in the hijrah.

Every human who migrates, will experience the same test.The key is to be patient.

La Tahzan do not be discouraged.