SOULMATES

Completed already?

I learned to be closer to God, I gave everything to God, no matter what happens in my life, everything has become his will, can not avoid just being able to go through it and pray that you are always given patience and strength in living it.

I saw a video on youtube, suddenly I saw a video of a woman veiled with the song shalawat. Suddenly my heart felt touched. Suddenly I cried, I saw the perfection of them, I saw the beauty with the syar'i clothes and the veil they wore.

There was something that I felt special about, I also felt grateful to God for leading me to stay on his path.

I want to learn to wear a veil, only because of God, I look for videos, about the law of veiled women, the conditions for using a veil like what.is only a high-scientific woman who can use, apparently not all. As long as we want to learn, get closer to God, we can. I look for references to the tausiah-tausiah that strengthen me.

I started by using the mask first, to get used to it. Because after the pandemic, it is also foreign to wear a mask.

I told my mother about my decision, and my mother supported me too, because with my single parent status as well. My intentions are stronger. I don't want anyone who just wants to tease me. Want to play around with me, because I think my single parent status is very sensitive. So I decided to shut myself down. Closing aurat that may sometimes be seen by people who are not supposed to. And I hope I am Istiqomah. I always pray, O God, lead me, never forsake me, never turn away from me, O God, help me.

I remember a Chandra. I tried whats app him.

"A this is Zara, maybe no. I want to save. "

"Definitely saved, thank you. Ga fast today? "

"God willing a."

"Oh yeah, what's Ade again? "

"Regular watching TV. "

"A former wife is also a Sukabumi man. "

"Oh yes. "

Suddenly Chandra sent me a picture. And don't know why the photo Chandra sent, the same as the one that A Rangga sent me first, Oh God don't ever remind me of A Rangga again. I beg.

"I love her smile. "

"Take a photo from Facebook. "

"Like it, now the permission.g ga nothing yes. "

"That's an old photo, haven't worn the hijab yet. "

"Ga nothing, have seen it too. But not all of them, see again. Delete the photos that are not hijab."

O Allah, why are his words the same as A Rangga.

"You wear a hijab or not the same smile. "

I just laughed.

I was shocked, so fast. I don't feel anything. There are no special feelings either.

"Sorry, just go first. May? "

"mmmmmmmmm. "

"I'm sorry, because my life is so complicated, so many dependents. "

"Everyone has problems too, with relationships, we can give each other a way out. "

"Yes is right. "

The next day there is another whats app from A Rangga.

"What's Zara going for, Cook yet?"

"Again waiting for a store, ga cook freely will not have a husband, just as mamah aja cookingnya. "with emoticons laugh.

"Oh yes, Will A Chandra maen come home? Can't cook?"with a grim emoticon.

"Will I see his house? It says it can't cook, but it likes."

"God willing, if you are given the address, you will meet. Share a loc. "

"Search on google a, Jstore."

"Enak is the place, why don't you open a brilink?

"Udah was once a year, now it's not, the capital is abis. "

"Don't accept A Chandra's intentions yet?"

I'm confused what he answered. Because I don't have any feelings for A Chandra yet. I replied with a grinning emoticon.

"Must rise up, and be sure of God."

"Alhamdulilah ya a I can still survive until now. "

"Thank God, if there is a will, God will give way."

O Allah why the words of A Chandra even reminded me more and more of you. Not that I forgot but instead reminded me more and more of A Rangga.

Oh God, I beg you not to be like this, I can't.