SOULMATES

Monas

Mother's condition is declining. Can't eat and drink, don't eat water just come out again.

I see the condition of the store is also very alarming, let alone cigarettes, there are only 3 packs of clove cigarettes left, Oh God it feels like this heart wants to scream. What I should do. The money for the car deposit has not been collected as well.

I sent a whats app message to my boss in the personnel where I worked first, hopefully there's a vacancy.

"Assalamu'alaikum pa Firman at the office there is a vacancy ga now?"

Not reply. I sent a message in the messenger to my other boss.

"Assalamu'alaikum, Pa Eko is there a vacancy at the office right now? "

Pa Eko replied to his message.

"Loker for who is Zara? "

"Create Zara pa. "

"There is currently no locker for staff, if there is already information to Zara. "

"Oh yes, thanks pa. "

"Sama-sama. "

"Zara WA change numbers, right?"

"No, this is his number. " I sent my no whats app to Eko's pa."

"OK, sip. "

Hopefully later there will be news, there are job openings.

Pa Firman reply messages Whats his app.

"Waalaikumsalam, There are vacancies at the HSE office with Pa Ditto. "

"Waduh united again dong pa, what are the conditions? "

Let it be if the job vacancy is so Ditto staff ga problem, professional only in work. Ex-husband's business is personal. If at a different work place. If Ditto has to be my boss, it's not an important matter of work.

"One more time, refer. " with a grinning emoticon.

"Oh can't pa, it's a different path. "with a laughing emoticon.

"Try me, if I can prepare the application file. "

"Ok, wait for it to be said again. "

Oh, God, it's so hard, what should I do. What should I do, confused. I have to go where. Istikharah can no longer be a hindrance. I cried again, even though I knew crying was not the right solution.

I'd like to wholesale where A Rangga works. Do I have to apply for a job to A Rangga aja yes. I can computer to make input goods, arrange goods on display shelves can, pick up dusan drinks or instant noodles ok, and so on, what does wheat flour time yes, can also. Anything that matters can make good money.

I called many times and there was no answer. God is not lifted at all.

I try to keep going over and over again with no answers.

Mother called to me, in a stammering voice.

"De, this is 500 thousand pake mother money first for the lack of nyicil car. I hold 200 thousand for later fear that there's nothing to hold."

With the weight of my heart I received, I counted again it was still less than 300 thousand. I went back to the store and waited for the rupiah to come again from the hawker buyer at my store.

I tried calling A Rangga again, if I couldn't find a way out. My thoughts always ended up on you A Rangga, somehow I don't understand either.

You gave a message

"Sorry what tea is necessary? "

Can't wa like that, I want to talk, let's be clear.

"You want a story."

"Can. "

"Call yes. "

"Ga can. "

"Oh yeah nothing. "

I looked down at my cashier's desk in the shop and cried, Oh my God what should I do? What should I do after this, I don't know.

A Rangga sent another message.

"Sorry, I don't want to be considered giving false hope like in your novel story. I don't want to be looked at worse in people's eyes like the story in your novel. "

"No, what am I going to do in the future? No one else can offer a solution. And the story of my novel I also took from a Copy of Whats app A Rangga. No more and no less. "

"Sorry tea, I'm just an ordinary person, not everything I say is true. I'm afraid there's a word I'm hurting, I'm sorry. "

"That's the problem, I'm sorry about yesterday too. "

"Oh yes thank you. "

"Ga was wrong, I was wrong all along. Don't take the bad from my novel A Rangga. Take a good lesson. A Rangga is also a good person. "

I have not the slightest intention of trying to put someone else in the eyes of the crowd. This is just the reality of life that I have been through all this time, I met Ditto who is like that, in the end we separated and then I met with A Rangga whose story is like that as well.

I was just telling you about what I've been feeling, nothing more and nothing less. It's a reality that happened in my life after I divorced Ditto and met with a Rangga I copied back every word people told me, well Ditto, A Rangga friends and relatives that I met during my iddah period journey.

I think my days are full of meaning that I love to miss. That's why I finally wrote my novel, hoping that someday if I have found my happiness again. I remember I was at the lowest point of my life. And it's possible that many others out there are going through the same thing that I'm living right now. The key is to remain patient and the spirit is always praying that God will help us out of this situation, sure that God's help is very close.