IF YOU ARE A FOOL

Bright Point

"i'm aware that all my attitudes hurt your feelings all along. I'm a stupid man"

why do I enjoy this impromptu embrace, my anger feels lost hearing her sobbing, I can't bear to push her body.

"let's just say you want to talk to me, determine the rat path we might be able to cross together. Maybe I won't decide right on all my attitudes"

"Your silence really made me upset and seemed to be lost. I'm sorry, I'm sorry"

I could feel her embrace getting tighter every time she overflowed her emotions.

Yeah, maybe it's true what he just said. I never gave her a chance to talk to each other well, with me alone.

"Kayra I'm sorry, I'm sorry"

that's the only word I've heard over and over again. Until I felt the crush that made me feel even more claustrophobic.

"you're good at leading organizations on this campus, unfortunately you're too stupid to lead your own heart"

"well, I'm having trouble breathing. We're talking now"

Hugging complete. Uh no, I'm the only one hugged, but I didn't hug him back. My heart was enough to embrace his heart. So it's calmer and I can escape from her gripping embrace.

Dian walked with me and we sat together under a tree. Actually we are not dating, but I don't know what will happen later if two creatures are in a quiet place, under a tree anyway. People say the third creature is a demon.

For what reason did Dian ask to meet in a place like this. If you want romantic-romantic will choose a beautiful garden, lots of flowers.

"sorry I hugged you before halal"

sorry for coming out again.

"sorry you do not mean" even though the heart is already pity, but there are still the remaining pebbles that are nyempil and want to be thrown until it runs out.

"if you are still angry, jutek, judes, I hug again" what kind of threat is that

"what the hell, mode"

"Kayra, really. I feel lost if you are silent, stay away from me. Moreover, you are angry with me, my days are ruined. Fucked it all"

"isn't that what you used to do to me? "

"yes, I realized. Maybe this is my reward for all my actions. And I deserve it all"

"good to be conscious"

"but please, I beg you, forgive me. It's enough to punish me with all this" his hands still fused to be in front of his chest, making a sign of supplication.

"Who punishes you. I'm doing this for myself"

"but I'm tormented with all this"

"until when will you remain selfish. Until when will you ask me to understand you. I'm a person to you, a nobody! "

"no Kayra. You mean so much to me. Previously until now. It never changes. Even though my attitude is always changing"

"i'm tired of your monotonous words. Always with that word seduce me. And stupidly, I've always been fooled"

"Tell me what to do so you can trust me and be sure of my feelings"

I just kept quiet. I kept watching his black eyeballs. And never miss the mimic of every word he said. I was trying to find the truth within him. Which I never do now. Let alone to look intensely at his eyes, to catch a glimpse of his body I need to gather courage.

"do we have to date? do I have to announce it on campus right now? do I have to come to your parents after this?"

"YOU MUST CLEAR MY NAME IN FRONT OF USTADZAH ZIA"

This time it was her turn to be silent

"even I've said that to Ummi very often. It's about his obsession, it takes time for ummi to realize everything.

Do you know, even I'm the one whose son never felt a mother's affection. Because of the ummi obsession that always requires me to be as he wants" he said softly, there is sadness here. I can feel.

"tell me what has kept me from believing your words"

Every relationship needs faith. The more I come here the more I understand my heart. Well, maybe I fell in love with that figure as long as it managed to make my heart turn upside down.

The more I tried to deny the more it hurt, the harder it was. The more you want to be forgotten, the more you stick in your mind. Even come at any time in a dream without me asking.

No matter how far away the physical distance is, it will not be able to separate the close of the heart.

Wherever I run, his name will remain forever in memory. I need to untangle the tangled threads that have been blocking my path all along. I need to calm down. Near, or far from him.

Wouldn't the more age someone would be required to be an adult? Is not the more adult life problems also must be getting heavier?

FACE UP

I carefully listened to the sentence after sentence that Dian uttered. From the beginning he bothered me, the reason behind all his attitude, the reason he quit the boarding school, also the woman who lately often followed him.

..."ooooooohhhhh, apparently like that" I thought, when Dian was already at the end of the story. ...

"If ummi could understand me. If only I had a mother like your mother. How lucky I am" there is sadness and hope in him.

"ssstttt, don't talk like that. It is all God's destiny. We cannot choose to be born of what kind of parents. This is a test for you, also for your ummi"

"yes, if only someone could support me to pass all these exams" he said expectantly. And I began to feel the thrilling auras.

"i don't know what kind of relationship we have. You do not want to date, and indeed dating is forbidden in religion. I wouldn't do that either.

I just want us to be better. At least there is someone who can support me, give me encouragement, hear my complaint, and that's you. You're all I expected. I don't know why I have faith, we'll be together someday.

I want us to be as close as we were small, even if that's all we know.

Will you accompany me to fight to melt the ummi heart? "

Me?

Me?

I could only gawk, not knowing what kind of answer to give. For sure I nodded my head, a sign that I WANTED.

"And one more thing, my attitude lately because of my promise to your Mama. I met him and ventured to tell him everything that had happened. He advised me well. But baby, I can't keep my promise well.

I CAN'T WITHOUT YOU"

"oh. oh. apparently my mother was my advisor" inwardly.

"at that time I also met Ahmad, Johan means"

"so.."." said I hang and immediately got a response from Dian.

"yes, aunt. And we both promise that.

And one more thing, Johan and I made a deal. If I stay silent, he will be silent too. But if I go back forward, he will also advance.

I know if it happens again it will definitely bother you. So sorry, I chose this place to meet. Because only this place has no CCTV cameras"

I gulped back to hear Dian's story. Between him and Jo's brother. I don't know what happened to those two. I have no interest in strengthening their relationship. All I see is that they still hang out with their group.

But after what happened today, will everything still be okay?

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