IF YOU ARE A FOOL

A wounded heart - 3

Johan POVs

I deliberately went to Kayra's house because there was something I wanted to talk about. About him who was ahir-ahir this blowing news "there are 2nd semester children who became the mistress of Mr. Nicholas"

yesterday I was there but he was busy with the task given by Mr. Nicholas and instead locked himself in the room.

So I know myself enough, I'm not bothering him. Then I chatted with his papa while playing chess.

And today my return was in vain. The person I wanted to meet was away with his friends. Sometimes I realize that I don't always have to know Kayra's activities. Even if I really want to.

Continuing to ask Kayra to Nahla would not be good either. There is precisely Kayra can ilfill on me. He was angry a few times because he felt I was spying.

For almost an hour I waited, Kayra finally came home too. But I found a different view. It is different with people who come home after a walk, happy, happy. There was a sour face, I could see there were traces of crying. And painful yes again, there is a bruised scar on his left cheek.

He was trying to hide, but all the time I knew him, I had memorized every expression on his face.

Luckily it was just me and my sister in the living room, as usual, her mom was still busy at the boutique during office hours. Otherwise, he would have already gotten a thousand questions.

As usual, a grandpa who does not pay too much attention to his brother may still be able to be cheated. He even tried to cover it up from me. But it's not that easy. This time I can't just be quiet.

I followed Kayra with her friends to the 2nd floor. I let his friends into the room first. Because if I talk to a lot of his friends, there's gonna be a lot of mouths to help him.

I feel more comfortable talking to him alone. But baby, I don't get any answers. Even this time he doesn't trust me enough to know about his problems.

"it's too complicated for you to know"

As complicated as it is, is it about Mr Nicholas? Because I know Mr. Nicholas has a lot of fans on campus. While Kayra counted a new child who suddenly could be close to Mr. Nicholas.

But I can't ask right now. I know enough about his heart and mood right now.

I failed again, my return was in vain.

I know the Kayra family very well, even like my second family. His house is like my second home.

But Kayra's heart is still very hard for me to touch.

As close as I was to his family, I never again got a special reception from him. My arrival is not a foreign thing anymore, even I can go in and out even without Kayra's welcome.

Kayra was actually the main goal of my arrival. But what power, the longer it takes, the more indifferent he is to my arrival. For him my arrival is not only for himself, but for other families as well.

Even now I have obtained permission from both of Kayra's parents to establish a closer relationship with her. But apparently I haven't been able to get into Kayra's heart.

But it's okay, I'll never give up on getting her heart. There is still plenty of time to keep fighting.

I love Kayra unconditionally. Seeing her okay made me happy. But with today's incident, I'm back in trouble. It would be like to shower him with all kinds of questions, if only he allowed.

Do I have to use the permission I got so I can always protect Kayra?

Sometimes the ego encourages me to have Kayra as soon as possible. But my mind couldn't force Kayra, so Kayra might just stay away from me. Even though my heart is always waiting for her smile.

When the ego, heart and mind are out of sync. What can I do?

"aaarrrghh, why is it so hard to get close to you, Kayra"

Of the many things I've done for Kayra, I just got a "thank you" saying". And of the many attempts I made to approach her, I only got the "sorry" remark"

"sorry, Kayra can't yet sister"

though out there is also no less many women who always try to find my attention. Unfortunately, my heart has been tethered to one name KAYRA PUTRI AL MAIRA.