IF YOU ARE A FOOL

Tipping Back at Kayra's Feelings

The first hour is over. Before leaving the class I tried to call my mother back. Earlier during class, my mom called me back, but I might answer my mom's phone.

Unlike me who was busy calling mama from earlier, Siska seemed calm. I'm not surprised, surely it's because they're used to their families being far apart. Not only were Siska's parents two, Siska's elder brother also seemed to be so far away. The point is not far because of physical distance but rather far inner relationship. The Siska family is a reflection of a family that is so busy with the world of work and little time to gather with family. And again, my mouth was pounding, not ceasing to give thanks for the family that God gave me.

Twice the call came out and again there was no reply from mama. I was breathing rough. Just last night not with mom, why is it so hard to contact. This heart rippled, but no. Whatever it is, I can't make my step back. This loneliness will only be temporary, I must be able to organize a new life.

"Mamaaaaa, Kayra longs "if mama could hear this heart cry. Ah already, if until noon can not also call mama, later before returning to the boarding school I will go home for a while.

Seeing my gloomy face, Siska began to interrogate "why the hell is Kayra? ".

It was as if there was no burden to him to be separated from his family.

I still keep looking at the phone in my hand, again I press the call out.

" Not lifted yet?"

" But is also busy"

" Huh, you little mama"

the last word Siska increasingly remember I will the atmosphere of the house, adek always beratai me with the word "base of the child mama". Agh, I miss 😢 even more

Usually, when my heart situation is like this there is brother Jo who gives encouragement. Every time there is an event at school or outside the school that requires to stay overnight. But it won't be for now, maybe until later.

My tears fell and Siska found out

"basic, SPOILED" instead of being able to sympathize, hug cake, even can swear. Makes my heart feel more uncertain.

I covered my face with both palms, holding back tears so as not to fall more.

"Kayra, don't be spoiled! Life is hard, how do you want to face the rigors of the mother if you are a mushy rich gini"

Instantly my eyes glared at Siska's words. Didn't think he would come up with such a sentence. So want to laugh also hear the phrase "fetch-fix" 😂😂

hopefully the one with the mother doesn't hear, or is gone.

My tears don't fall, my heart slowly improves. Maybe I really need a bluff like Siska did, because there is not always a hug.

"wash your face there so as not to tangle, mumpung lecturer has not entered" I can only grin and move to the bathroom.

As soon as I got back from the bathroom, the lecturer was already in the classroom.

deg

I stepped in doubtfully. The shadow of punishment I ever got from Mr. Nicholas is still attached. Which in the end dragged me to the gossip in the campus area. Luckily, there was no physical attack.

"excuse me, from the bathroom" lucky the lecturer has not begun the material.

"Kayra, may you ask for help" my feelings have begun to feel bad, but can I refuse?

"yes sir" I answered briefly as I approached him.

"please copy this page, you forgot" I waited for the following sentence, and luckily that was all I had to do.

I have to get back out of class to the copy place on the first floor.

Why walking alone is so uncomfortable. Because I was rarely alone, Siska and I were like heads and tails on campus.

Many eyes were staring at me, whispering, most of all about it again. Hopefully Mr. Nicholas and sister Maryam will soon have a wedding so that I will be free from this slanted gossip.

deg, Dian's.

My heart still doesn't stop beating when I see him. But I have to ignore it. I should be able to pretend I didn't know her like she did on the campus all along.

"that's, samperin tuh"

"brush, no Ahmad (Johan) "

the whispers of friendship I could hear, it seemed like the group he was starting to know. Even if, I don't know how many percent of things they know.

Now I pass in front of them

"ecomm. ekhm"

"uhukk. uhuuk"

"urga"

the sound that was deliberately released resembled a cough, I still did not budge.

"ah, cemen loh. Darn"

"it's been found out too, especially those who want to be closed"

"want to lose competitiveness with Ahmat (Johan) "

I can still hear their talk. Because the distance is too close to the place of the photocopy. Unfortunately the noise from the group he alone heard, the concerned just silently sculpt.

I pretended not to hear, but how could I possibly dismiss it from my mind as well as my memory.

I really want to leave this place soon, unfortunately I still have to queue.

I am tired of struggling with my own thoughts. Between the heart and mind that is never in sync when it comes to the name DIAN.

Why is that guy so annoying. Sometimes it gives the impression of how close he wants to be. But what he showed was a haughty nature that made me really sick.

I want to tear that guy apart. Pinches, spanking, slapping. Or even in uleg just so be sambel. Basic, it looks interesting but actually spicy.

My ears still hear the group's prick. But there was not a single letter from Dian. I don't know why that adds to my frustration.

I can't stand it anymore, I finally dare to poke the guy who queues up front

"mas, can nitip 1 sheet only. I've been waiting for the lecturer in class"

thank God, God is still kind to me. Being found with a kind person. The copy sheet and the original book are already in my hands. I give you ten thousand bills and get out of that hot place. Just make a sultry heart, my grumble.

"little money only mbak" said the photocopy guard.

"gapapa mbak, you pay to have this mas"

I was finally free too. Even though it will remain in the head. I don't know, just turn it off.

Because the queue was long enough so I had to return to class by running, I had long enough to die from class and must have been left behind material.

"sorry old, queue earlier" I handed the book also photocopy results.

"yes, thanks. Please sit down"

Huh, can breathe a sigh of relief as well. There is no punishment nor is there any nagging.

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