IF YOU ARE A FOOL

"mama's son" why not

"yet not having an internship, brother? " mama asked as we all gathered in the TV room.

"yet ma. Yesterday there was a hmmmpirr deal. Unfortunately, only two people accepted it. So yes we just resign" I said sadly.

"sister anyway, tell join the company papa aja do not want" adek interjected.

"iya Kay, in consideration again. Than you're tired of going here and there but the results aren't certain"

"Kay just don't want to stay using the facilities. Get ease from family. Kayra wants everything to be full of Kay's own sweat struggles"

"honey, accompany me for a while yuk" said Dian suddenly. Making me leave my mom is good too.

"where? " ask me.

"i just remembered, there's something I want to show you.

Ma, we'll excuse you" Dian held my hand and I followed her up the stairs.

"we talk outside" said Dian as soon as he arrived at the last staircase.

"do you want to show something? "

"yes" Dian kept walking by holding my hand.

"do you see that star? isn't he far, very small, yet pleasant also soothing at sight"

"sad what the hell. Thought I was kind of a kindergarten kid, persuaded by the stars"

"the stars will still be beautiful for anyone who likes them. Not even a child or an adult.

And you, do not need to be too hard on yourself just because you want to eliminate the image of 'mama's son'. Wouldn't that image stay attached forever? or suddenly you can try to be 'grandmother's child, oma' child or whose child it is"

"Darling what the hell, not funny" Dian continued to stare at me fixed in the distance of a face that was only one inch.

"who is making jokes. I know, you're trying to show me that 'you can' without family help.

Who the hell is bullying you?

Come on, you don't have to hear their word. You weren't harmed either, were you with their nonsense? You will lose by taking their heart.

Come on, accept papa's offer. The bodo period with mouths that do not give that advantage. Don't make it difficult for yourself.

Or you're apprenticing at my place.

I can accept all your friends, but with placement in a different branch for sure"

"you seeremehin I juuuugggaa" I said as if hanging in the air, because Dian had already silenced her with her mouth.

For a few seconds the mood was silent.

"try to lower his ego first, remove negative emotions. Wear this, and this "she points to the head and feelings.

"father, mother, even me. We all love you.

You are fighting not just now. Even you are at this point all too because of your own struggles right?

Being a student of acceleration is not easy, I have also felt.

I can't bear to see you who have been very busy starting to enter acceleration class, continued KKN, married, now still busy also to and fro the internship place. Not to mention writing the thesis. It's all a struggle, isn't it? "

I was silent for a moment, digesting what Dian had just said.

Well, sometimes I'm lured by the word "mama's son's basics" just because often I get the ease of being on campus. Because of the kindness of some lecturers, for example.

"i made this decision long before we were together, before we got married. So I don't like it now, after marriage, I'm set up like this. If you object to my busyness, you canaaaa"

She can do anything and unfortunately I can't resist the charm and strength of a Dian . With kisses and touches that always make me forget what I was thinking.

In an instant my body was already in Dian's arms, walking towards the room.

The night ended in bed. Whenever he wants and whenever he wants. Not necessarily with a long round. Whether he or I are getting smarter, because they do not have to wait too long for warming, the two clear fluids have managed to come out simultaneously.

God willing is safe, after we have previously consulted the gynecologist about the use of contraception that is safe, and without complicated.

Doctors recommend that you wear an IUD. Because of its use of the patent, can be checked periodically, can be released at any time.

We decided to wear it. Which is definitely embedded and will not be possible forgetfulness, until deliberately released. Know for yourself Dian who likes to ask for an impromptu ration and me who is too complicated with the final task of college.

We have agreed that we will not have children first, at least one year ahead. Enjoying the time together while completing my studies that live in front of my eyes.

"now we're together. You don't have to carry everything yourself. Never say it again like that.

I know a lot about your life on campus. Especially after you made it into the acceleration class. There was no more Siska whose mouth was spicy.

You need to defend yourself, but that doesn't mean you have to complicate yourself. Consider it a sign of shirk can not afford. And it's like that, right?

They can't get the ease you get. So they put out bad words as a form of envy.

I support your education. I support your every decision, as long as it's good.

Because there must be residual energy in every night, for us to be together" whispered Dian in the last sentence.

The hungry face that Dian shows me every time makes me not have the heart. I enjoy that anyway.

Sometimes when the feeling strikes, makes me reluctant to move from his side. Makes me want to be with him always. Also called bucin. Bucin his halal newlyweds.

Am I being too hard on myself?

I just want my education to be completed quickly and precisely. Pass acceleration class with cumlaude value.

You know, maybe I should give up on accepting papa's or Dian's offer. It also won't bring down my achievements all along. The most important thing is to try, if in the end you have to accept the helping hand of the family, why not.

That's right Dian said. Bodo time with the mouth of the shirk people. Besides, if I'm 'mama', what do they want?

Wouldn't there always be the mouths of a scoffer? No matter how you try to do good, there will still be a gap for them to make fun of.

So, why think of someone else who can only bring you down?

If there are still sincere people who want to help facilitate your business.

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