IF YOU ARE A FOOL

Not Love

Days change, it doesn't feel like a week I've been through in this new place. Everything is starting to feel ordinary. The routine at the pesantren is also a dining table with a pesantren family. And again, it did not feel all this time also I parted with papa's mother without the slightest news. All the work seems to have taken up my time. Until I miss my mom, I can't. Especially thinking about Dian and Johan.

Everything if lived with good intentions will indeed become easier. In the pesantren I began to busy with agendas ahead of the holy month of Ramadan. While on campus I began to busy with preparation for the Acceleration or Acceleration program.

Mr. Nicholas is really galvanizing some of the students who are going to take acceleration classes. In fact, he spent more time on campus even though his wedding with sister Maryam lived soon. Can be calm like that because Mr. Nicholas gave the wedding to the bride's family. Given the condition of Mr. Nicholas' mother who is still out of the hospital.

Now some prospective acceleration students already know if my closeness to Mr. Nicholas just to help him find a mate, be me in the nickname matchmaker by them. It's not really my intention to tell them. Who else if not Siska. He's always been like a hot worm every time he hears a rafter about me and Mr. Nicholas.

"you know them why. Or do you really like it in the same gosipin Mr Nicholas?" it was as if it gave me a hard slap. How could I like the same gossip, Mr. Nicholas. I finally opened my voice to clarify all their accusations.

I don't care anymore about what's going to happen. Anyway I tried to shut myself off from the public conversation, still at the end of his name I was involved in hot news on campus. Not in Junior High School, High School, even college. For a long time I tried to close myself with great difficulty. Avoiding Jo's sister also Dian whom I thought by being with them my name became exposed. In fact avoiding them doesn't save my name from the list of most popular college students. My ears ring at all times. Wherever I stood there were people talking about me and Mr. Nicholas. Hopefully with clarification on a small percentage of these students the news can reach the entire campus.

"sis, what's wrong with you? " it looks so shabby Siska's face with lips that look pale. Since the boarding school, Siska and I reduced the activity in front of the mirror. Sometimes lipgloss is forgotten.

"my head is dizzy Kay" Siska massages the temple.

"lack of sleep or lack of food? " i stick my palm to check Siska's body temperature and the results are normal.

"no fever" I said back.

"just go back, there's no khan class" Siska said.

"while wait for Mr. Nicholas to give the training sheet to be at home" because of my closeness to Mr. Nicholas, always I became his accomplice.

"here I grease eucalyptus oil, you might catch a cold" I took out the oil bottle from the bag.

After applying oil to Siska I tried to contact Mr. Nicholas.

"oh yeah-yes sorry I forgot. You can take it to the lecturer's room, I still bother preparing materials for this other class" he said from behind the phone.

"Sis I take you to the car first huh. The task sheet told me to take it in the lecturer's room" I started putting the books in the bag.

After delivering Siska to the parking lot I immediately ran small towards the lecturer room. When I was going to cross I was forced to stop because there was a motor that passed. And, this heartbeat still vibrates when our eyes meet. Even though it was tightly closed with a binocular helmet, only the eyes were visible. Apparently Dian has changed his bike with a new motor.

Advertisement was over, I ran back to the lecturer room.

"you why run from earlier" said Mr. Nicholas as soon as I arrived in front of building C, where the lecturer's room.

"father is done, but already told you to come here" he said casually.

I picked up the sheet of paper Mr. Nicholas gave me and immediately left.

"Siska is not feeling well sir. Excuse me"

without waiting for an answer from him I immediately turned back and returned to walking at a fast pace. Once regretted the lecturers, usually only this order stay like that. I was upset in my heart.

"why is that a manyun" Siska asked as soon as I got into the steering wheel. Now I've become used to being Siska's personal driver because I hitchhiked in her car.

"when it is also finished, not he gave the news of being ushered in the cake, even casually waiting in front of the building. Look at me running around in the open. Ngeselin" I replied annoyed.

"sir Nicholas? " ask Siska

"who else" I replied briefly.

"hust, that's your favorite lecturer" uh, he answers instead nyeleneh.

"hey, who's dear"

"if anyone sees your interaction with Mr. Nicholas outside the campus, you are not like the same lecturer students. It's too close, the message is on gossip. Is sister Maryam not jealous of you? "

Forgiver. Like an electric shock, Siska said. Spicy was right what he said today. With checkmate continue because of Mr. Nicholas.

"so yeah, shut up you have the same assumption as the other kids? " my emotions started to rise hearing Siska's words.

"i'm just telling you about Kay's fact, which you probably can't see"

"not every closeness involves feelings. Not everyone can be loved. Don't always judge a man and woman's relationship by a feeling. Is it only the person we love that can be close? Can't we have friends, close friends? Maybe I'm just comfortable with Mr. Nicholas and already think of him like an older brother. NOT LOVE"

TB

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