IF YOU ARE A FOOL

First Night

I will never violate love

All I keep for one love

The last and the sure for ever

Faithfulness will be tested

'I don't want to give up everything at the beginning

If there is no certainty

It's a mistake to love me

Just for the first night

The first night I gave it up

All my love is for you

And I want you to appreciate

As obedience is not mere satisfaction

My love is not for your life

I want everything to happen with my blessing

In a meaningful smiling embrace

Never say goodbye

These souls do not run away to where

If I were your destiny

It's useless if I do it early

I want the first night

The first night I gave it up

All my love is for you

And I want you to appreciate

As obedience is not mere satisfaction

My love is not for your life

I want everything to happen with my blessing

In a meaningful smiling embrace

Never say goodbye

Tonight

'I surrender it

Love for you

Starting I finished releasing all the makeup in the head until the time magrib arrived, one old song just kept on playing. Songs that had hits in our childhood. Even now the singer has been lost somewhere, never appeared on the TV screen again.

The night, I was made more worry by something that maybe it was wanted by other newlyweds.

I don't know why I'm so anxious.

"you why the hell, from the afternoon it looks like so restless" Dian realized my uncharacteristic self.

"father. I'm just not ordinary, in a place like this, with other people" I said anxiously as I continued squeezing the tip of my nightgown.

"hey, I'm not someone else. We are married. You'd forgotten?

You just aren't used to it.

Or do you remember something that hurt you? "

Dian kept caressing my face. Also occasionally get rid of small hairs scattered around the forehead. Smacked my forehead. Take my body. Then bring me to lie down.

"what are you afraid of? What makes you uncomfortable with me? I promised I'd never hurt you again like I used to" Dian kept staring at me.

While I was powerless with his gaze. At this close distance. I try to take my eyes off.

"aaaaaa

aaaakkkuuu" I don't want to express what I feel.

"are you scared, this close to me?

Believe me, I've never done this before.

Do you want to hear my heartbeat? Or just touch her" then she grabs my hand and sticks it to her chest.

"still not felt yet? here" she quickly put my head into her arms.

I can hear clearly the roar of the heart that is no less fast than my heart.

I dare to look back at his face.

"believe already?

bbblluusss, heating up my face instantly. Maybe if I could see, my face was already like a boiled shrimp at the moment, red.

In the midst of worry, amidst anxiety, he could still be reassuring.

"i wouldn't have gone too far tonight if you weren't ready.

But if you want to do it too, we pray first" our views are still equally clingy.

As if they were investigating each other.

At least my heart is calmer now. He was not an arrogant person and of his own accord.

"we pray isya. But after that, we fell down. Doesn't matter if we don't do it tonight? " i looked deep into Dian's eyes. Either I'm guilty or I'm not, or maybe I became an ungodly wife early in the marriage.

"no problem.

It is precisely I who will feel guilty if doing it with your depressed condition. I want us to be just as happy"

My God, how wonderful Dian's love for me. May this be the BEST JODOH God has chosen for me.

We both smiled. Then our faces approached each other. Closer and now our faces have been attached.

"more relaxed yes. You can bite me if you feel uncomfortable"

I'm nodding.

And sure enough, our kiss this time felt more comfortable. I really enjoyed it. I'm starting to be able to keep pace. It demands even more rhythm. Until we rolled over on top. And,

"aaaaawwwuuuu" I grimaced holding my butt that fell first to the floor. With Dian above me.

"sorry sorry. I should have fallen first" Dian lifted me up and sat me on the bed.

"sorry, I'm too excited" I said as I continued to hold her neck.

"no problem. Did you enjoy the one just? " i nodded.

"want to be repeated again? " Our faces are still clashing against each other.

"awh already. My ass still hurts" I'm just afraid, there's more scenes after.

"okay, sorry. I Love You" Dian kissed my forehead at a glance and was about to go to the bathroom.

"Dian.

"I Love You Too" I said with a smile.

Looks like I invited back him who was about to leave. uuuppsss, he turned his body towards me.

"Kayraaaa, you're so adorable" her hand played my cheek.

Then carried me in front like a child, so that our faces looked up.

"down, I'm heavy Di. "my whine.

"your whining makes me even more anxious.

Okay, we're not gonna do that one tonight. But may I play around with my other assets? " for a moment Dian's words confused me.

"assets?? "

"ehhemp. Asset. Like this" she kissed a glimpse of my lips.

"then" he kissed my chest. Even drowned his face between my two chest mounds. How can I avoid, because of my two arms, I put them on Dian's neck.

"you are the most valuable asset I have. Compared to all the stocks I've got" he's playing his breath around my ears.

Getting that touch my heart's back in the caratons.

Dian smiled looking at me. Maybe my face has turned back to pink, red, or purple maybe. Or maybe he could hear my heart beating that was not because of.

"can you? can lah? plisssssss" he put on flirtatious eyes, then a face that was pinched. How can I say "no" again.

"jas. We pray first" I said at last.

"get it ready" Dian took me to the bathroom.

"deselect. I am heavy" I said.

"it will be harder for me to be accountable in the hereafter. To my wife, and our children"

Dian dropped me off when I was in front of the bathroom.

"i will take water for you to abode"

It feels so cold. It is the example of the Prophet that I saw from Dian. Human steps in this day and age, right?

Sitting and standing behind her as a mum makes me more comfortable. My heart feels calm. It was too late when after the greeting, I kissed her hand and then she kissed my forehead.

Something is rippling in the heart. As if the water of heaven were flowing through it.

May Allah be pleased with this marriage.

May God always take care of these two changing hearts.

May Allah keep the holy rope of our marriage, until death do us part.

Then I am willing to pray every prayer that Dian said. A prayer that touches me from all sides.

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