IF YOU ARE A FOOL

The Ruckus in the Morning

"honey, we will have breakfast at runah ummi yes" said Dian told, once we have finished the morning prayer together.

"can. But what about tumben?" ask me wonder. Because usually abi who asks for dinner there alone always I seduce with great difficulty.

"i don't know, suddenly miss the ummi cuisine" he said while folding the prayer mat.

"you can be disappointed also angry with ummi. But you can't hate ummi. Yaaa" I held her hand. Staring in those beautiful eyes that were currently in front of me. Trying to find out, his deepest sorrow that until now he has not told me with certainty.

"yes, I know that. Therefore, until now I am still silent, trying to neutralize all unpleasant feelings. And you are my spirit. The only reason that made me try so hard to deal with all this"

"i will always accompany your steps dear, as long as it's towards a good move"

"thank you for bringing me to the love of this family. The love I've never had before"

"don't say that. Ummi and Abi must also love you, just in a different way"

"but they've never supported what I want. Whatever I want, I must take great pains to fight for their permission.

Although abi is more often supportive of me, even then there must be a long debate first with umm"

"sssstttttt, already. Don't go on if it just makes you sad" I held Dian's lips back so he wouldn't talk anymore.

"it's a very cold morning. Do not confuse our feelings with the pollution of life that can only scorch the spirit.

Rest assured, at that time God is forging you to become a strong person.

And in fact, you can be a great person with your own struggles.

It's much more proud"

In front of the window we were standing, matching the love with an iron trellis. While enjoying the morning air that is still free from pollution. Accompanied by the sparrows that fly here and there.

"the one that made my feelings most slashed was

In the past, every Friday night Mr. Kyai directly asked me to accompany him on pilgrimage to the tomb. I never asked what the reason was, why was it always me who was asked to accompany. And coming to eat that one, Mr. Kyai asked me to pray there.

I never suspected anything either. Though I also know the closeness of ummi with the pesantren family, but what I know is limited to cooperation between ummi and one of the families in the pesantren.

No idea, it was the grave of someone who had given birth to me into the world" Dian's tears fell, dripping right on my shoulders.

With both hands tightly hugged my body from behind.

I let her cry, maybe so that she could be less burdened.

"It felt like it stabbed me too deeply"

continued.

I turned around, wiping away the still dripping tears.

"i feel like I want to be mad at everyone who's hiding it all"

"we may hate a thing, but God gives good through it.

Do not allow ourselves to be overwhelmed by anger. Go straight on, for Allah loves those with a breast" I touched the chest of the field in front of me. Trying to channel good emotions, neutralize the sadness that approached him this morning.

A warm kiss landed on the forehead. Accompanied by a tight hug that made me feel a little claustrophobic.

"never worship a single thing from me. As small as that"

"there's no dear. The vow. All yours, my body soul.

Even if there's something in my life that you just know now, it's not my fault either?

Don't I have to tell you all about my life before we get married?

You also never tell, have fans where, ever the same way anyone, no....."

Not until I finished talking, my mouth was silenced first by Dian.

"breakfast in the morning" Dian said as soon as she let go of her kiss.

"dear,iwh,nyebelin"

"but you like it, right?" Dian moved to replace her scabbard with shorts.

"yes but not that either. There's still people talking too"

"the end of your lips gemesin if you already ngomel at length.

I quickly grabbed the hair tie on the table and put it on in a hurry. Then ran after Dian down. Because of the danger if it gets worse again.

I also want to know what the real story is. Maybe he was more on the side of others and didn't tell me.

"owh, so apparently that's what last night made you pacing around like an iron" came the sound of my mom talking as I reached the bottom of the stairs.

"you are also passing the deck" mama scolded.

"iya tuh ma. What to make a marriage dispersed people" my dream.

"husttt, what are you talking about early in the morning. It was a prayer, so good talk" so I was the one who rebuked my mother.

"astagfirullah hal adzim" I said quickly as I silenced my mouth.

"the new bride is her innate is always so excited?

Take it easy again Dian, it's SAH. No one can defeat Dian, si.a.pa.pun.

Even now it is the time of the actor, pebinor, the SAH remains in power. Believe me again, Kayra.

Yes, brother?"

"Adeeeeeekkkkkkkkkk" it makes me want to scream. Not to clarify correctly. Even talking here is unclear. It's really my guess.

"holsty, Nahla. You're this, you're a kid, where do you get such words from" before I say you've rebuked me first.

"mostly hanging out is ma.

That is why I do my job at home, not at the cafe.

The reason is a ride wifi, even though at home also free wifi"

"hoooh, my dear brother.

If at the cafe it is not complicated. Wifi is free, if thirsty, laper, just call the waiter. Done, stay home"

"your youngest son is wrong"

"it's not my sister's fault, baby, but ga.ul"

"already have. Want to break this mama's ear. Still morning, mending in his energy to help mama ready for breakfast" shouted mama from the kitchen.

While Dian looks head bobble.

"what was discussed, what happened" Dian murmured while standing up to leave the dining table.

"nemenin papa seems to be better" he continued as he continued walking.

"yes yangggg, please siramin my newly planted flowers yaaa" I spoke loudly.

Whether done or not, Dian must have heard.

"you're the deck, don't be so fad. Not okay. It could be that you think it's just a joke, it could cause problems for others" mama again reprimanded adek as we entered the kitchen.

"yes yes, sorry.

Sorry, big sister, really jealous, sister Dian?"

"you owe me the same explanation Brother"

"oh yes ma, Dian took breakfast at the ummi house this morning" I continued, saying to my mother.

"alhamdulillah, if you want to get along again" turned out to get a happy welcome from mama too.

"yes ma. Then Kayra get ready first. There's someone ready to help, he's off duty"

"ewh..anak, the stars are already....."

"daddy, already. No need to continue"

I stepped away leaving behind a scene that again received a reprimand from my mother.

"that's really a child yes, from the beginning there was no change" I said in my heart while continuing to climb the stairs.

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