IF YOU ARE A FOOL

Friendship

With heavy steps I left Dian and followed Jo's footsteps.

He walked first leading my steps to follow him towards the side yard of the building. There's a little garden there.

I was still standing at a distance of over a meter when Brother Jo had stopped his steps.

For a while we stood in our own positions. No one tried to get close. Unpleasant swishness attacked me again. Especially with just the two of us here. I don't know if I want to run or curse.

Until finally Jo looked at me. I can clearly see the once masculine figure. Always neat looking, fresh hair, fragrant aroma. With all my heart I held on as his steps began to approach.

"congratulations Kayra" with a heavy tone finally the word escaped from her lips.

"on marriage...

May happiness always be with you" for a moment Jo looked away. After his sentence was stuck.

I know enough, it must be hard to say that. The sadness is clearly there. But I can what?

When that anger turns to pity. This heart is too weak to watch someone being hurt.

Is this really that bad of me????

I tried to hold back the tears. The punch I was trying to throw turned into a hug. I still remember every piece of advice that came out of my mom's mouth. Busty, trying to forgive all.

I cannot be a selfish being who has gained happiness but still harbors hatred for him whose heart I have wounded.

Even if I don't want to. Even if it's not my fault. Whose destiny can God choose?

Now we embrace each other with tears. Trying to vaporize all the feelings that torment the soul. I don't care if anyone else hears or sees. I can feel Jo's tears wetting my shoulders. Yeah, I can feel my shirt on my shoulder feeling wet. Though Jo's cry doesn't sound like my sobs.

"Cyra sorry"

"forgive me"

"i'm sorry"

"i was wrong"

"i'm sorry"

"sorry Key"

Repeatedly the apology was said with great emphasis. A tight hug that seemed as if he was afraid of falling.

The whole atmosphere was heating up, even though we were out in the open.

Word by word that came out of Jo's mouth, implying her current fragility. If I participate in my fragility as well, when will we get out of this state?

"already brother. I have forgiven.

Even forgetting is not easy.

We closed all the things about yesterday.

Let's try to start all over. "my word is full of emphasis, holding back the stuffing.

"i'm ashamed. Same to you, your parents, my parents, even to myself"

"what you did may have been wrong. There is nothing wrong with feeling. It's just that, now I've SAH become someone's wife. Fate does not make us fools. So please, let go of me. It'd be better for us to be together" I slowly untied Jo's big hug.

There was no rejection, only now he changed to hold my hand tightly.

"yes Kay. I know it. And that's for sure. I'll try to bury the feelings I have. Even thinking about you now I don't have the right"

Apparently Dian had finished changing clothes.

"i did ask you to talk to Kayra. But not to touch her anymore" with a quick step Dian approached us. Then in his hand next to mine.

"yes, tau. He already has you, sorry" the two men spoke to each other in a cynical tone.

We finally sat down with three. With Dian as a loyal listener as well as a guard. Even he did not let go of my hand once his face turned to look at something else.

Jo and I talked to each other. He went back to clarifying his past mistakes. More or less like what my mom told me. It's just that this is more than his side.

One side I am angry, but on the other side I can understand. All will not be easy, when we have to forget someone but instead he is getting closer.

I admit the great soul of Brother Jo who still wants to show his nose at my wedding. It must be hard. It was only fitting that he disappeared since then. But I don't intend to ask that. Fear of having an impact on other feelings.

If he had been heartened to accept all of God's Fate, then there would be no reason for me to remain sorry.

Regretting myself for inflicting wounds on others. Because basically we can't make everyone happy. Because it's not our job.

After a long conversation between me and brother Jo, the three of us shook hands. Cuddle each other for a moment.

"remember, this is just a sign that we are all friends. Between me and you. It's also between you and Kayra. Look out for another time when I see still mepet-mepet with Kayra. Let alone daring to touch her" Dian gave an ultimatum as we were embracing each other.

For the first time I heard Dian's ultimatum directly on Jo's sister. No matter how close they are, until a friendship that still remains in the struggle. There is still a possessive side to it.

That's the human feeling. Complex. Nano.

After all the road I've been on. There are so many feelings I feel. In the end I felt relieved. Things got better when I started a new phase of life.

"dare to go home. Be careful until home in soin sate you ntar" said Dian to brother Jo.

"can you do that? " ask me who doesn't know what Dian means.

"yes, he has been found out if he is rude to you. This morning my mom had a story to her mom, before the event started" said Dian. Now that he was more relaxed, our hands were no longer interlocked.

I gulped violently. Turns out it's been completely sealed up all about me and Jo's sister.

But not long after I breathed a sigh of relief. Because now everything has passed when both of our parents know. I can't imagine if what happened between me and Jo's brother, made two families who were already like brothers.

I smiled with relief looking at Dian. Then his hand started to move towards my shoulder. Swiping it repeatedly and close my forehead to his kiss at a glance.

"i know you guys can't stand the lingering here" Jo got up and said goodbye.

"thanks yes bro. I owe you a lot. Titip Kayra and.

I can see the interaction of two men who once fought for me, now warmed up again. I smiled happily for their friendship.

The three of us went back into the building. Because all the events are over. The family has finished tidying up all the items. There was only a WO team that was busy with their part.

We went back inside the building and were greeted by two mama mama who were smiling.

Who else if not her mom and mom Jo's sister. Apparently they had noticed the three of us sitting outside.

Jo and I were both kissed by our mama. Then take turns mama kissed Jo's sister and I was kissed by her mama Jo's sister.

Then the two of them grabbed our hands and put them together.

"we're all family" said Mama, while attracting Dian to join us in our intimacy.

We looked at each other and smiled.

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