IF YOU ARE A FOOL

Behind the Silence

Rahardian POV

Right now I'm not in class, it's just that I want to get out of the house and mingle with friends. It's none other than that I don't keep remembering Kayra

My faculty with Kayra faculty is just one building different. But as far as I know today she's in class. So received an invitation from friends to hang out in the cafeteria, which is usually a subscription for Kayra and her best friend.

Unexpectedly, it was there that I met Kayra. Alone, it turns out to photocopy. Well, the cafeteria is right next to the photocopy temot.

As a result of my dispute with Ahmad (johan) the other day, made my friends know if I and Ahmad liked the same woman. Just as limited as they were, I still did not want to make Kayra get enemies from the students who were blatantly trying to get close to me.

"rese y'all" I kept saying in my heart. They all kept pushing me to get to Kayra.

This should be a good opportunity. There are no spies from the ummi, nor is there Ahmad. But I'm not a person who likes to break promises. There is a God who always sees me.

In addition to the agreement with Ahmad, I have also promised many people not to bother Kayra anymore. There's Melan, Aunt Fifi, and Kayra, Andini's aunt.

I came to Kayra's house to apologize. Even if I can't apologize to Kayra directly, at least I've admitted my guilt to Kayra's parents. Even if Kayra hates me so much, hopefully not with her parents.

That afternoon I went to Kayra's house. The house still seemed quiet, so I approached her mother Kayra to the boutique. When I was there, he was preparing to close the boutique.

"let's talk at home" to be honest, there's a little fear of me. Same with Kayra, I also very rarely greet with the other Kayra family. For some reason, I feel guilty and ashamed to greet them.

This time I had to have the courage to admit that I was wrong. I'm guilty of Kayra. I'm the reason Kayra's been through this. All because of me. Kayra is a kind, polite, not odd girl, who likes to seek attention like the teenagers I often meet outside.

In pesantren it is generally like that, because there are binding regulations and require it. But on the other hand, outside of it all is not uncommon they feel free once outside the pesantren. I often find myself.

While Kayra, without any binding rules, her personal remains awake. Courteous, polite and friendly.

But I was the one who destroyed it all. I made things worse by ignoring his greeting. Annoying smile. I only judge right from my side. How stupid I am.

I told Aunt Andini a lot, even everything I told you. Mistakes, regrets do not miss an apology. For myself, and ummi.

When I can't devote all my problems to ummi, I hope there is a mother figure who is able to understand my side. If at that time there was already Aunt Fifi advising me, this time I want the Kayra family to understand about my side. I don't know where this courage comes from, which I certainly don't want to continue to be sidelined while Ahmad (Johan) can go in and out of Kayra's house at any time.

I know Kayra's parents are good, at least she's not like my ummi. Seen when they came to my house after the ummi incident slapped Kayra. It is also clear that there is no hostility between Ummi and Aunt Andini. There is only Ummi who is always looking for trouble with Aunt Andini. I know for myself, often ummi inflames the flames of hostility. I was really embarrassed to admit it all in front of Kayra's parents. Ummi who I should be proud of, there is no intention to talk about the ugliness of his own mother, but what power, all clearly visible. Even Abi has often reprimanded and advised.

Lucky I'm done telling you all my complaints. This time it's Aunt Andini's turn to give feedback and advice. I felt welcome when Aunt Andini wanted to listen and give me advice, after everything I did to Kayra. I felt inappropriate, but I was also very hopeful.

The roar of the car entered the courtyard, at first I thought Kayra's father, Wijayakrama. It turned out that after descending, there was none other than Ahmad Johan. I smiled wryly. I don't know, all this time he's been in a different car when he came to Kayra's house.

"assalamu'alaikum" said Ahmad Johan then shake hands with aunt Andini. I waited for a while before deciding to reprimand him or to endure in silence. And it turns out that she reached out to me too, inevitably shaking her hand at a glance.

"sit Jo" reprimanded aunt Andini back.

"You know each other" asked Aunt Andini. Then look back to take advantage of drinking water. Understandably, the maid at Kayra's house is only until the afternoon. And maybe now we are home.

"why lo here" Ahmad rebuked me still in a cold tone.

"my business" answered no less coldly.

Then we kept quiet until Kayra's mother came with a drink.

"what do you need Jo, Mama told you or what? "

"no aunt. Jo wants to talk to auntie"

"no, I'll stay here. My business is not finished" I don't want to lose to him, it's good that I came first even want to be expelled.

"what business do you have, make trouble anyway" Johan just provoked my emotions.

"hallo, aunt is still here. Do you need aunty to go, finish your business first" aunt Andini broke my fray with Johan.

"no aunt, sorry" said me and Johan together.

Aunt Andini put the tray under the table and then sat back down.

"you guys really want to talk about Kayra, don't you? " aunty Andini's words seemed to be pointing, and we nodded at the same time.

"Now the aunt understands your problem. Kayra and Dian, as Dian told me just now" I nodded.

"and about Kayra and Jo, auntie has known that for a long time, from Nahla. Kayra does not fully tell aunty, only certain times such as when she feels pressed, depressed, or worried. Aunty never pressured Kayra to tell her everything that happened to her, the aunt believed in Kayra. He can put himself.

Aunty will definitely protect Kayra, because she's an aunt. But here the aunt will speak as a mediator between you. Kayra's aunt and you're the nation's children, you should have both been briefed.

Don't waste your youth on something like this, it will only interfere with your focus. You both have achievements, keep that up. Make your youth worthwhile with achievement, make your parents proud.

The soul mate must have come, already in line before man was born. So there's no point in you guys chasing Kayra, let alone fighting. Not necessarily Kayra your soul mate. What if it turns out that Kayra's soul mate is someone else, is it not a waste of your dispute?

Let destiny go as it should. Auntie believes Kayra has forgiven you, but give Kayra time to improve her feelings. Time will answer later, who is Kayra's soul mate.

Right now, focus on your goals. Anyone who will be a friend of Kayra, of course aunt hopes he is a successful person. Succeed in education, succeed in work and of course understand in terms of religion.

Race you in the good. Get busy with self-improvement. God willing your soul mate will be as good as that too. Stop chasing Kayra. Give him the freedom to pursue his dreams.

Auntie hope you two can understand "

Instantly also my will to continue chasing Kayra collapsed. Sentence aunt Andini managed to beat back my struggle all this time.

There is also a point in what Aunt Andini said. But I will still keep Kayra in every prayer.

Pardon your stubborn servant O Allah, but somehow my soul feels like it always wants to be close to him.

_______________^_^______________

Hay, hello

Kayra is back with a long tip from the mama you know 😇

patient patience well for the feeling of 😍😍 soul mate who will not go where Khan???? ¿?

pardon the long time did not appear, already at the end of Ramadan nih gayss......

maybe later meet again after the leaflet, hihihi 😁 stamped as much as possible yes, yes,

thanks for the faithful waiting 🥰

like, vote, coment make the spirit of the letter 😃😃😘