IF YOU ARE A FOOL

It's Not Over

Ustadz Billal POV

As a person who understands the science of religion, of course I am not a person who used to touch women, moreover it is not a mahram nor is a relative.

That afternoon I came to one of the mosques who asked me to be a speaker at an event to be held there.

The mosque was still quiet at that time, because the ashar time had not arrived while the dzuhur time was almost up.

As I walked out of the secretariat room, there was the sound of a woman crying from inside the mosque. Until as much as he sounds.

Somehow this heart was moved to approach the person.

The man was crying in a prostrate position still wearing a mukena.

How shocked I was and my heart was touched when I met that person was Kayra.

What the hell's going on?

Why is he here at this hour, shouldn't he be at school?

Where's her car?

I have a few questions in my mind.

Not until I asked that question did I panic. What am I supposed to do?

Kayra continued to cry even until the sound of her breathing faltered. His hands are trembling. I saw his face, I almost laughed to see his eyes that had been swollen like they had been stung by bees.

How long has she been crying?

I don't know where my wits went, my reflexes were hugging Kayra. I can't bear to see how he is right now.

I just hope the positive energy I channeled through the embrace was able to calm her feelings.

First minute, second minute

"Kayra. Calm yourself Kayra" just that sentence that I said a few times while gently stroking her head.

This is really the first time in my life. Touching a woman other than ummi, hugging her and putting her head on my shoulders. Actually my own heart goes up and down.

Minutes passed, until I heard Kayra's cry subside a little. But he still dwells in my arms. Until the next second someone comes, Rahardian.

I know that guy has feelings for Kayra, and vice versa.

Maybe he came at Kayra's request.

Wet even if I accidentally.

The man watched as Kayra was still in my arms. I know enough how he feels. Jealousy, that's for sure.

Instead of approaching closer, the boy just left.

Kayra's cry that had once subsided broke again.

Jealousy, like it's not just the guy who feels. The man who used to be my protege for a moment.

There was also an uncomfortable feeling in my heart, seeing Kayra cry over her disappearance. But that's not the most important thing right now, my age is no longer labile to clarify things like that.

After Kayra was able to calm down again, I let go of my hand. Trying to ask some questions.

Finally I accompanied Kayra back to the cafe opposite the mosque. To be honest, I was worried about leaving him alone in the way he is today. Even if I don't know what kind of problem he's really facing.

Kayra walked in front of me.

He stopped at one of the tables, probably the one he had ordered before going to the mosque.

I was surprised to see so much food on the table. Just wanted to ask "you didn't have the wrong table? " he sat down first and sipped the drink in the glass. It means it's true that this is all her order.

" this much, you invite many friends? "

finally that sentence I asked.

And I was surprised when he shook his head. That means, this much food for all of him?

Sure it's over?

A person as thin as him, how can he pesen this much food?

For a few months we ate together at home, I've never seen Kayra eat this much. Was it because his heart was unstable, so he vented with this much food? But how the hell can he stay slim like that?

My mind went everywhere.

But seeing Kayra eat with her voraciously, hopefully this is indeed a medicine to cure her grief. It is not hearty to see her eyelids that have almost fused up and down. So swollen.

I've tried to ask him what happened to him, but apparently he has not believed enough or maybe not comfortable enough to tell his personal story with me.

I understand, I am a stranger in his life. Only a few months ago did he know. And maybe he thinks I'm the one he needs to avoid. Remembering my way of recognizing him scares her. So was my willingness to make her a wife so quickly.

I'm not the kind of person who finds it easy to find a woman. After I was disappointed with a woman decades ago, only this time I was able to find a new woman. And this time my heart was open.

But it seems like my time to find a soul mate has not come. I got a rejection from Kayra. There are a lot of things he doesn't know about me.

It's not all final.

Even if there is someone who has a close relationship with Kayra, but I will still try.

Now that I know almost everything from her person, there is nothing more that I doubt about Kayra.

I will slowly try to approach him, in a more pleasant way.

I don't know what God's plan is to bring Kayra and me together all of a sudden. When Kayra really needs someone as a backup. Hope this is a good new beginning.

Even if Kayra might just think of me as a 'hopeful hero' I'm fine.

I am also not a destroyer of other people's relationships.

Even I promised to help Kayra to correct the misunderstanding.

Either one of us is Kayra's destiny, or neither of us is possible, only God knows.

If you are already a soul mate, there is no going anywhere. What matters is trying. Even if I were Kayra's match, that doesn't mean I'm cornering.

All the power of God.

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