IF YOU ARE A FOOL

I'm Not a Criminal

JOHAN POV'S

It's over, between me and Kayra. It's all over, I think I've been looking after him for years. It's all done, as I confessed in front of Dian.

Yes, I admit defeat in this competition. And I retreat, no longer a shadow between them.

Kayra had found the happiness she had been looking for. And it wasn't me.

Keep hoping he'll only hurt me for longer.

I'm a man, broken heart is natural. Even though tears would never let me out, my heart was broken enough, my mind was chaotic enough to learn to sincerely accept disappointment.

Maybe now for Kayra I'm the one she should stay away from. I am the one he hates.

I could only silently accept the bitter reality that I deliberately created myself.

After a few months I was not ready to meet Kayra, finally today we accidentally met.

I just passed the bench that was at Kayra's place with Dian, without the slightest look towards them.

My feelings were a little bit slashed, when what sounded was a voice of fear, not anger.

There was guilt, would Kayra really be hurt by the lack of my teachings at that time?

O God, I would have been a very bad man in Kayra's life if it had happened.

His kindness and struggle I countered with abuse against him.

It's all happened, now I don't have the guts to face Kayra directly. I couldn't remember Kayra's tears back then.

Maybe this is karma for me, when good should I repay with bad.

Not to mention that if our parents knew about it, it was certain that my own mother was very angry with me. But so far I have managed to convince my mother that I no longer need Kayra's presence. Because his presence will only add to my wounds.

Nahla herself was angry at me at the time, when she found out I made her sister cry.

And I made it. Successfully injuring someone who has been as strong as I can take care of with all my body soul.

I will not be able to deny the regret and guilt that now haunts me. Hopefully this will all break even, paid off by Kayra's smile when she was with Dian.

Slowly I began to find a new spirit, Nahla.

Yeah, him. Even though he was Kayra's brother, but their nature and disposition were much different. In terms of face and body posture is also different. So it doesn't matter, it doesn't remind me too much about Kayra.

After all, Nahla was the one who had been a friend as well as a friend. Because of our nature and character that almost have something in common, also the same hobby.

Maybe because all this time I was too focused on pursuing Kayra's heart, until I forgot that Nahla was always with me. In my joys and sorrows. Even when Kayra never looked at me, Nahla was my encouragement.

When I felt lonely expecting the presence of a brother, Nahla also accompanied me. Unfortunately, almost everyone thought he was a child.

After Nahla told me a lot about Kayra at that time, she finally complained. Which he probably kept all this time. We exchanged sadness with each other.

We promised to fill each other up. Support each other. Encouraging each other. Being a friend, friend, brother, also a partner sometimes.

When I have events, I often take Nahla. Likewise with Nahla, when she had an event often asked me to accompany her.

So far there are no questions from Nahla's parents. Maybe because we have been together a lot since then, it is close to familiar. Not like Kayra.

Either Kayra already knows or not about my closeness with her sister. But for sure it will not be a strange thing and make the question.

One thing's for sure, I'm not going to make Nahla an escape.

Where he did not get his brother, his sister became a target. It's not like that.

Again, I'm not a guy who plays with women.

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