IF YOU ARE A FOOL

Half of My Soul is Back

(still Johan POV)

"Jo. If you are like this, not only you feel heartbreak, but also mama" said mama from behind the door, but I still did not flinch.

"if you continue like this, mama will call a psychiatrist home. To check on you" Mama's threats are all kinds, just to persuade me to go out to eat.

"Johan's not hungry" that's my answer.

Then the voice of my mother from behind the door was no longer heard.

I don't know if I had a dream last night, Kayra suddenly came home this early. I'm sure it must be my mother's request.

At first I did not want to open the door. I'm ashamed of my tangled self like this. It could be that Kayra is precisely ilfil seeing my current appearance.

As I know, Kayra is a tough girl in work, organization, humanity. Even if he is weak in feeling.

I can't deny I miss that girl very much right now. My little heart finally lost. I can no longer hide behind the door.

Embarrassed, I let Kayra in. To be honest, I'm ashamed of Kayra with my current self.

Lucky mom and dad left us both. So I'm more comfortable facing Kayra.

At first I thought Kayra would leave as soon as I saw my current self. But it didn't.

He was still determined to break through my despair. I was very sure, his presence was at my mother's request to heal my wounds.

And now I don't know what's on my mind and heart. My heart just confirmed every word Kayra said. While deep in my mind, I don't want to get caught up in persuasions that could be just for a moment. I remembered that his feelings were not for me. It's just a pity. Or maybe just a sense of caring because the relationship between two families is so close.

aaaarrrrggghhhh

I felt frustrated after his departure. I stared at the little bottle that still had one left in the closet, then I threw it out the window.

Why am I this weak to face that girl?

The door is still open after the departure of Kayra. pppyyaarr

the sound of the bottle I threw was loud enough to attract my mother's attention

"my drinking glass fell out the window ma" I lied. Mama would be sadder if she knew I had touched the liquor. Luckily, an empty bottle was thrown into the trash by Kayra.

Again and again, every mama saw me her tears dripping. As an only child for many years who was so close to my mother, of course I also felt the sadness that my mother felt. But what power, I myself was unable to fight the pain I felt.

"Kayra has come, baby. Kayra will accompany you. You must regain your spirit" while shedding tears mama gently rubbed my hair. My face. Then kiss me and hug me.

"do you know how sad it is to see you like this Jo?" I still enjoy my mom's embrace without saying anything. Anyway I don't know what I can say to wipe your tears.

This pain makes me so selfish.

I forgot how to make my mom smile. I also forgot that I had a former best friend who had captured Kayra's heart long ago. Even I pretended to forget, it would be how Kayra felt between me and Dian.

For sure I will not waste Kayra's presence. It could be that Dian has won Kayra's heart, but I will win time with Kayra.

Even though I didn't have any intention of doing this at first to attract Kayra's sympathizers, now I'm changing my mind. Kayra has come back to me, where I may have wasted this good opportunity.

Half my soul has returned. He returns. My girl's back. Yes, Kayra has returned.

I tried to convince myself repeatedly that this was not a dream.

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hay gays.... How are you all? hopefully stay in health.

in an erratic season like today, disease outbreaks are happening everywhere, in addition to the coronavirus outbreak.

Keep the condition of health care, keep the faith is also very important.

May we all remain in God's protection 😇

the author himself is not healthy, the husband's son too, replace.

so forgive chapter chapter less greget 🙏

may Kayra's readers remain loyal until the end of 😘