IF YOU ARE A FOOL

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I came home with a broken heart. Must be happy or sad. You have to love or hate.

I just left them both. Even I did not tell Mama first if I went home with an online vehicle. Coincidentally, there were no incoming messages from Mama.

At home I went straight into the room to pray dhuhur. What else can I do, other than to pour all of this into the heartbroker.

I hope there is a quiet spot after that.

It feels heavy, heavier than facing brother Joe first.

It seemed like this time it would not return to calm just by being full.

Need sandara. *O*h maaaammaaaa, I thought at a glance. But I'm not sure I'm telling you this same mama. I thought about Jo's sister, but she also put my heart into it. Remond, ah don't get involved too much with new people.

Brother Gilang, I feel immediately excited to remember that name. But, it would be too long if I had to tell you from the beginning.

krreeeeek

The door opened and a mother who seemed to be walking into the room.

Since I came home, I did not leave the room. My eyes are swollen, I can't resist tears not to come out when pouring on the owner of this heart.

"big brother why, his eyes are puffy. Crying out"

I can't hold it anymore. Tears broke once again as my mother approached and sat in bed next to me.

hhiikkzzz hhiikkzzz hhiikkzzz

I can't control the crying. Still sobbing, while just gently stroking my head without asking any more.

Until I felt calmer, the tears stopped me.

There's no way Mama would pounce on me if I told her this. Mama always believed and supported me

"Dian... Rahardians"

"he's why"

"so I wanted to meet him, with Melan"

"sister flanked, in the same contempt he was? "

"no" I fell silent again, trying to put words together. Where do I talk to???

"mama knows it's always me just as she never gets along. But behind that he often gave me ma's stuff. And sent a letter a few times"

ssrruuuttt

I tried to hold back the rest of the crying

"in the letter she said she loved Kay. But behind that his attitude is much different. He seemed reluctant to meet Kay. Go straight away if you accidentally meet Kay. Kay sebel ma, Kay hates, Kay feels in tinkering with her chameleon attitude"

"hemmp continues" mom still stroked my head full of love.

"but he said instead, that all his attitude was to protect Kay from Zia's ustadzah. He really loves Kay. But it can't be good with Kay for now"

"Kay don't know ma. But once Dian sent a letter with Arabic writing, obviously Kay could not read. Kay just kept it in a book. Inadvertently when Kay had a meeting Remas, the paper of the letter fell and the ustazah found. You may have read Dian's name at the bottom of the letter. But it was a long time ago ma. "

"yes already. The ones that were yesterday were kept neat as lessons only. Kay improved from now on, starting a new leaf"

"meaning ma"

"Dian has admitted his mistake. Want the feeling of what he is like, Kay does not need to think too long. There were other things more important for Kay to think about. Kay is in 3rd grade now. You want to go to a top university, right?! "

"of course Ma"

"Forgive him, because by forgiving our hearts will be calmer. Give back what Dian loved. If indeed he could not return to be good with Kay to protect from Zia's ustazah, yes let it go.

You don't have to be familiar even if the house is close. Not familiar but not enemies."

"there's more ma"

"yes, what is it? "

"he said maybe not yet, but he won't be silent either. He'll pick up Kay with a pinprick someday"

"your paths are long, son. It's too shallow to think about it at this time. Do not make the burden something that should not be. It is your job to learn at this time. Indeed, we do not know what God's will will will be like, just live what is currently there. What Kay is feeling right now is not necessarily the same as tomorrow. Teenagers the age of Kay are still unstable. Now A tomorrow can be B, tomorrow can be C.

Hanging out with a lot of friends, knowing the character of a lot of people, is more important. From just COURTSHIP. The courtship was close to adultery, forbidden by religion.

It can interfere with concentration. Isn't creating that much achievement more important?! "

"iya ma. thanks for the advice"

"no need to thank you, this is my duty.

Mom's son started to grow up apparently"

mama woke me up and rubbed my face that was still wet with tears.

"oh yes, about Zia's ustazah who is not friendly anymore with Kay, there is no need to be a burden. Kay also does not need to hate ustazah.

Keep smiling when you meet him. As long as we do nothing wrong, whoever is evil or jutek with us, keep smiling.

The more Kay matures, the more Kay understands the character of many people, the easier it will be for Kay to understand.

Just think about it in terms of ustazah, whose sister Dian had dropped out of college, now Dian who dropped out of Pesantren. Every parent must be disappointed. Maklumin yes"

"yes ma. Lucky Kay had a mom like Mama"

warm hug mom is very comfortable, soothing.

It's not wrong to tell this to my mom. Because after all the mother is more entitled to know about each condition of her children.

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forgiveness is better, friends. Forgive also the author who updated ny like old, like no typo.

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