IF YOU ARE A FOOL

Inspiration

After Melan and I, it seems that Siska will soon find her last port. So remember Melda and Meysa, how are they? About have started to find a place yet?

I would be very happy if Siska accepted ustadz Billal's proposal. I think they fit. Like a beast with its handler. Hihihie, if Siska could hear my heart at this moment, it would have been a direct rampage of her beast. ROOAARRR, fear iwh.

Because as far as I can see only with ustadz Billal Siska can make peace, chat relaxed and soft.

Instead of thinking about Siska's relationship with ustadz Billal, again flocked me with a message that only contained writing

kangen

wannabe

wannabe

longs

longs

longs

homecoming

homecoming

homecoming

I don't know how many messages are just so-so. The more ignored, the more chatter that comes in.

O Allah, bother to face the immaculate brother again.

"Just week home. Must, not accept rejection. Fitting, don't pack on bargain.

I'm gonna talk to mom and dad, move our marriage forward" at the end of an emoticon love and plead.

I feel like breaking this head. Dian wasn't kidding to get married as soon as possible. Until I don't know, be happy or grieving. Happy, because this long wait will soon be realized. Grieving, for having to give up this single soon. I'll still want to wander, bailing buana 😢

"yes, I cried bombay. Why now replace you who cry? " reproof Siska. Apparently he saw a clear grain falling from my face.

"Dian Sis.

"Dian why, cheating? " ask Siska guessing.

"Dians.....

get married" I said with all my heart.

"wahahahahahahahahah" precisely in reply to a long laugh by Siska.

"ngebet nyebet nih, uuuppzzz" continued Siska relapse with his vulgar sentences.

"what the hell are you Sis"

"sory sory, keceplosan.

Well good right, that means he's really serious about getting married to you.

Remember Kay, JODOH WINDE AND DEATH is God's decree. We can't predict when that will happen.

Maybe well... indeed your JODOH has come the time" said Siska with a very convincing facial expression. It really fits when juxtaposed with Ustadz Billal.

Topcer is the word Siska. Directly at the point.

"okay-okay, believe. It is compatible to accompany ustad Billal preach" said I.

"what the hell is Kay. Not connecting" quickly Siska brushed off my words.

Somehow Siska's true feelings on ustadz Billal. Or maybe it's just me who is too hopeful if Siska receives the proposal ustadz Billal.

"don't be that manyun. Jellek" because Siska couldn't stand it if I said it was ugly.

"well, this weekend we go home together. You also want to go home to find answers, right? " my word again.

"it's okay, just yesterday you came home already want to go home again? " ask Siska.

"no too, hehe 😁

But if I don't go home, then Dian just shows up and kidnaps me, isn't that any better? " i had imagined, how Dian, the man who was in the washcloth, would have said if I had not fulfilled his request.

"can that be? " ask Siska.

"canada. Frankly telling Ummi, if he's my fiancee I can.

Maybe not Ummi who will be shocked, but ustadz Billal. If only with him I said 'no'. 'No' is getting married soon.

But what is it? it seems like my youth will really be over soon Siska" I said at length.

"are you talking about Kay? " siska said lightly.

"Siskaaaaaaaaa, you bawl" I shouted Siska's name very long. And apparently, someone had been listening to our conversation since.

"ekhm, ekhm" there was the sound of someone thumping on the porch. Siska and I know whose voice it is.

"ustadz Billal" Siska and I looked at each other and called ustadz together.

"die I'm Sis.. die" I said as I patted the head.

"don't have to die first, don't get married, Dian can be stun.

I forgot, I made a deal with him"

"Siska.

"the name also forgets. Yaudah ah, I went out first meet ustadz" Siska opened the room door and passed.

While I'm still digesting what I know I'm talking about with Siska. It's a shame not yes if heard by ustadz Billal?

But for sure, it won't make ustadz Billal hurt. Because he has found a new heart.

"forgive me sister Maryam, I hurt brother" I said in my heart. Remembering all the goodness of sister Maryam also Ummi so far. But what power, I really can't if I have to repay it with heart. I hope they all understand.

I pray my best for ustadz Billal and Siska. Hopefully this time ustadz Billal will not be disappointed again.

Because really, what I see they're very compatible.

That way I will be able to step calmly, if indeed my soul mate with Dian has come. May no heart be hurt when the happy day comes.

Deg

Thinking about it all, made me think of one name. One name I really want to erase from this memory. But alas, it is too in that name to reign. Too many memories that I might not be able to forget.

Too long a road we've been on together. In fact, he was already like an angel to me.

But why, he had the heart to carve a wound that might never heal.

I really hate her. Hated her love. Hating his obsession. HATE. HATE. HATE.

I want to scream as loud as possible. If only it could erase all traces of him.

Brother Johan, you are evil 😭

Why can you do all that to me.

Why do you have.

Why me, why?

What's my fault?

Your love has blinded your heart.

and

*Your obsession has blinded your mind.

Lord, forgive me for hurting someone's feelings, for making him do evil.

God, I'm sorry if I ever gave her false hope.

This heart does not want to hate. It doesn't taste good. But what power, I am just an ordinary human being who has anger.

Hopefully, in the end, YOU give him the antidote for all his heartache for me.

I'm sorry if I had to choose, I'm sorry if I went back to the one who always hurt.

May it be that JODOH, what can I*.

Tears continued to flow, as my heart spoke. Because, my mouth will not be able to tell about my disappointment with Brother Jo. It feels too painful to return.

Let all pass through the stream of life. For the Lord is the Owner of the Truth.

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