A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED
HANG HOPES
" Yes." said Rama one day when the road to go home from school.I was with Rama without Lulu.
Lulu must go home immediately because there is a family event that requires her to go home quickly without stopping by.
" yes .." I replied
" may I say something?" tanya rama suddenly looked serious.
" talk, when can I ban you"
" Meisha.me." then he pensively hung up everything he wanted to talk about.
" i what?" I can't wait to hear what he has to say.
" ah not so" he said, making my heart a little disappointed to hear it.
" you're daydreaming again, aren't you?" his taunting while pinching my nose
" what the hell" I replied slightly pouting
" why are you pouting?" ask me
I did not answer it. My mood immediately changed.I hope Rama revealed what he wanted to say but again he undo it.
Until parting at the intersection of the road , I put on a sullen face. seabreg said - Rama said in comforting me still did not make my mood back tingling.until he was tired continue to comfort me. I continue to silence it. let him keep talking anywhere without being cared for by me.
" See... knapa?? is there something wrong with me??" asked him at the end of the journey, he took my hand, calmed me, looked at me with a gaze that washed me away.
" you are wrong Ram..you make me confused about our relationship.You always hang on to what you want to say.You always make me float with all your attention , you always amaze me with your gaze, you always make me bewitch with your smile, but you blow me away with the fact that you always hang on to what you want to say,,,I'm waiting for you, I want you to grab me before I tell you" that's my answer without being heard by Rama without being noticed by anyone. I just cried sadly letting go of the grip of his hand passed leaving him. I know you actually know what my sadness means. You actually realize where your fault is. I know you feel what I feel too but why Rama?? aren't you sure if I love you too? . While others around us know if I love you Rama. If you love me why don't you say it? if you think I don't love you it's Rama's fault, how can I not love you if every day you give me happiness in my life. how can I not love you if you give me a smile every day?? Rama if you knew my heart, I was expecting you to be my lover.I love you.I expect you to be my partner even though I don't know when this feeling is present in my life" that's the content of my daydream. there is only a trip home there is Rama in my mind. no matter the heat of the day. how sad my heart how tormented my heart is because it expects you still the figure of Rama does not fade from my memory.sometimes fear hits me , what if Rama actually loves another figure.
