A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED
COWARDLY
At school now my heart is very carefree.no more thoughts about Irfan in my heart. it feels already breakeven all my sins of betrayal to him. just wait for the time I really broke up with him. do I hate him??? ohhh no!!. I pray for him so that he can be happy.
" irfan beaches rarely to our class yes Sya. it turns out he already has a new crush" said Adi as we gathered in the break.
" ah you, even manas - manasi Meisya" said Maura.
I didn't answer . Just smiled at them.
" when did you break up??" asked Maura again.I went back to silence. I have to answer when while the reality is we are still floating.if you say we have not broken up I do not want Irfan to say cheating on me.
" let's talk to the others, don't blaspheme Irfan and his partner.they also deserve to be happy" I advised them.
" didn't you hurt to see they're so rich?" I asked her again, only with a smile.
" come .. What are you gossiping about?" rama came to us and sat beside me.
" no . this again comforts Meisya. I think she is heartbroken again" seduced Adi with a ignorant smile
" really???" ask Rama pura - pura surprised.
" don't be sad my dear" he said again, stroking my back.
" eeehhhhh you look for opportunities in narrowness" said Adi.
" i'm fine.it's right!! you have to believe that!!"
" it is time for you to formalize your relationship" said Adi full of seriousness.I just look at each other with Rama. it feels not ready even though we love each other the time must be a legitimate boyfriend just because Irfan has had my replacement.
" as long as you know, we all know how you feel, each of you loved each other from the beginning" said Adi.
I was silent as well as Rama.
" what are you waiting for??" ask Maura.
" Ram... do you want Meisya to take another one from you??"
Rama shook his head but remained silent.
" why Ram... Why don't you dare to tell your feelings to our friend??? why are you just mute!! I want you to be honest with me with our friends if you've loved me for a long time.Why is it only if I'm a you dare to say that?? what else is stopping you!! when are you going to hold me in your love in front of everyone like you dare to hold me holding my hand when no one - who.?? why do you remain a coward when there are others against our love??" that is the groaning of my heart.
" Ram... Please answer honestly,, do you love Meisya ???" he looked at me.Just looking at me.I know that gaze full of love.but we were all waiting for the figure of Rama to say it out loud that he loves me.he remained silent. I immediately got up to my feet and then passed away leaving behind all the hopes that were only in wishful thinking.
now I'm disappointed in him.
" Yes, where are you going??" maura shouted, but I didn't touch her. I seemed to want to leave everything behind.I kept walking and accelerated my footsteps.sound from behind the sound of footsteps chasing me but I kept walking without waiting for her. I immediately headed to Lulu's class because only she would really understand my feelings.
" why??? what's up??" lulu asked as I entered her class and was seen crying.
I did not answer his question.I kept quiet beside him.he appeared before me with all his guilt.
