A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED
A LOVE THAT IS NOT OWNED
For a moment we were silent only accompanied by loneliness and heartless turmoil.
" aunty had warned her when she realized that my son was beginning to love someone other than us" she momentarily fell silent as if reminiscing about something.
" maybe he is very disappointed to have a mother like me. Not aunty does not understand the turmoil of teenage love, but it's just monkey love alone. so the aunt tried to block him with the rules that have been determined " .
Hearing all that I became miris . fortunately not my mother who thinks like that. I am grateful to have a mother like a friend for her child.
" do you understand what auntie means?" his tanyanya disperse my daydream.
" understood aunt, but auntie must know me and Rama there is no bond whatsoever " .
" aunty also knows but Rama loves you. Hope no matter how much he loves you you should avoid him. focus on what is already his duty" .
" evil!!!! you are a very cruel mother!!!" my grumbling in my heart.
" well aunt .. I will try to do all aunt's wishes even though I will hurt her" I replied firmly.
" thank you, son, thank you for understanding what auntie means, maybe if you are a match you will be reunited. but not for now" he said as if to comfort me. but waituu... I thought again to be a match with him. is it possible that I should be paired with Rama with a mother figure like this beside him??? . should I endure waiting for him?? should I understand everything?? .
We separated after what his mother wanted to talk about was delivered perfectly in front of me. Now I am worried . what other problems this???. My relationship with Irfan has not been completely resolved ,, now I have to set my heart to forget the figure of Rama who was already adrift in my veins. I do not want anyone to know all this even though I cannot bear it myself.
" very tired "welcome home when I arrive home.
" change your clothes!! then eat to get his energy back"
" later, let me stay here for a while" I replied as I leaned on my mother's shoulders.
" what's up??" ask him as he thought his son was having problems.
" no, just a regular cape"
" yes, take a deep breath out, let all the sense of the cape subside" he replied as he stroked my hair.
" thank you for being the best mother for me. "my words were almost crying in front of her, but I was trying hard . lest you see a single tear. no matter how sad and hurt I don't want him to know. Then I immediately leave my mother.I don't want him to suspect something is wrong with my life at this time.
Coming to a room that is none other than my room. threw my body, slowly I began to sob. Maybe this is the end of my story with Rama. should be where I started everything. not long ago I heard him say his feelings towards me when I took a long time to wait for all that, but now I am faced with the rules of his mother Rama.
" is there the best way for all this??"
" should I hurt her again??"
" it turns out my love has to be this painful" I screamed in my heart. I tried to calm myself but the pain in my heart deepened.I loved her but my love still can not be had.I can not reach it, I can not reach it, I can not reach it, only the wounds of love can't be had.
