A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

A STRONG DETERMINATION

The morning clouds were so warmly shining.I built up a sense of spirit in the chest in starting this day.all good intentions are imprinted in nirani.

" well I will do my best" I determined eagerly as if to replace all the tears that had fallen in vain.

I entered the school area full of confidence. I do not want to look sad and even sad . I have determined to be a strong woman beyond the strength of her mother Rama. a cheerful smile I spread to all who cross paths with me. I want to look happy even though deep in my face the pain is dominating the heart because now it is realized that the gap is real in front of the eyes.

" morning Brother Meisya" said someone who was none other than Tiara.

" morning" I said back to him not to forget I slipped my best smile.

back to the beginning I did not go to my class.I even visited Lulu class and linger there for a long time.

" you're okay, right Sya" he asked suspiciously.would be as good as I hide my pain.would be as wide as I put on my smile still a Lulu still suspected me.

" well... Why??" I smiled without looking at him.

" it doesn't feel like you, as happy as you are not like this, your eyes you can't lie to me" he said, either seriously or not.

" h you...!!! I'm going to class first huh" I said to Lulu. I deliberately avoided the next question.

The first subject teacher saved me from his gaze.he immediately focused on the book in front of him as well as me. Although in fact the focus had been lost somehow drifting. because now in my mind only stored him in the suffering that hit.I love him,, I miss him even though I can not feel it again.

" not now!!!! give me time to start forgetting about it, to start ignoring it!!!" my inner screams are really nestapa.

" Meisyaaa, don't be dumb!!" yelling teacher made all my daydreams wake up immediately.

all eyes were on me, and she was no exception. Rama looked at me questioningly and I returned his gaze with a slight smile that might not be as sweet as usual.

Arriving at the break I immediately poured out to Lulu's place, but what was sought was not there he said to the toilet. I was about to look for it there but my feet even stepped into a place where there was a room. which always brought me to meet the figure of Rama. I slowed down the pace of my feet.

" There he once said he missed me" then the shadow seemed to dance clearly in front of me as he was sick in this room and I was stuck in this room in his arms.

" hhhhhhhhh" I took a deep breath - deep. I should leave immediately.

" you miss me?? you're so mad you missed me??" suddenly the voice was so clear in my ears. he grabbed my hand in his hand.Warm, comfortable yelling in every beat of my pulse.I wanted to cry hearing that voice. I want to look at him full of love as usual but I can't do it .

" don't let my hard-earned strength have to collapse in vain" I strengthened my resolve