A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

TEST (REVIEW ) MATHEMATICS

" well, , now we repeat mathematics" said the teacher when he entered our class.

" what can be in the back of the mother" said one of us.

" i've told you from last week that now it will be tested" .

a moment of silence in class.

" there's two groups of questions, so you're one table isn't the same thing"

" can't cheat on each other"

" let's change the bench, each bench one woman one man" he ordered.

so we were busy changing seats on my desk Dina who moved to another bench.

" may I sit here" said Rama surprised me. I nodded while calming my heart that suddenly churned.

" just relax I won't bother you" she said again.

" don't smile like that.I can't concentrate" he said again.I immediately kept quiet as if I was sulking at him.

" it's not you who can't concentrate, it's me who can't focus" I replied

" why?"

" because you can't keep quiet, keep talking"

" well then I will move, change seats with others" he threatened while standing.

" no!!!" I said slowly afraid the teacher heard it. then Rama sat back down.he was not stopping looking at me.

" Rama, Meisya .. What's wrong with you, from that whispers continue"

I was hit by a reprimand from the teacher. Friends simultaneously staring at us. I am ashamed you are so ashamed!!!.

" Meisya was impatient to get a question from mother" said Rama.

I didn't dodge it because there's no other reason I can represent it.

Then we get to know about it.

the classroom atmosphere was so quiet.we focused on the problems we were solving . I forgot for a moment the figure beside me. as well as him.

I calm my heart from the gerogi feeling every time there is near it. I pretend not to realize its presence.

The test was over soon, we immediately collected the results of the work to the teacher's mother.

" if this time my grades are bad because of you" whispered rama to me. I saw it with a million astonishments in my mind.

" i'm being blamed"

" because I see more of you than I see things"

" it's not my fault but yours" I tried to brush it off.

" it's your fault that you're too seductive"

" who told me to sit here"

" my heart" he replied as he fumbled at a part of his heart.

" because I won't let anyone else have a table with you except Dina" he said again .

" selfish!!!" my words while glaring.

" i can be jealous of anyone" she replied.

until after the math lesson, he sat with me. If there were no teacher, maybe I would be the target of my classmates' temptations.

" this is what it feels like to have a table with someone who is liked" my heart grumbled. There was a sense of being amazed, a sense of degdegan, a sense of being wrong and somehow let alone being surrounded by my heart as he sat beside me.

" don't daydream" he wrote in his book which was later shown to me.

" i'm not daydreaming" I replied in the book.

" i'm happy to be by your side" she wrote.

" i'm tormented to be near you"

" why?? I'm too tempting ya"

" it feels asphyxiated as I am. My heart is not because of "

" should I hold your hand??" the tanyanya still teases me.

" no!!! others can see it"

" i don't care. Right now I want to hug you "he wrote again making the hue of my face red.