A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED
WEARY
" Meisha..have you been with Rama?" ask Lulu one day during the break
" so what? " take a question on Lulu
" i think it's official courtship.that's in vain dong I let you two walk"
" does he love me?" I asked back
" Meisha...Meishaa you do not realize what, with all the behavior of Rama so far. has not been enough to prove that he loves you?"
" if he loves me why he never told me Lu" I heard
" maybe she's ashamed of Sya" entertains Lulu
" why even be ashamed of Lu? isn't love fought for?"
" you love her so much" said Lulu, making me ashamed because I couldn't hide what I felt for Rama in front of Lulu.
" if you love her so much, why don't you say it yourself first?"
" when I have to say first. I'm a woman . malaluuu!!!. where my pride you. mending that Rama loves me. what if he only thinks I'm just a friend" obviously I was with Lulu.
" ohhhhh God was in love with Rumiiit" said Lulu
" or what if I just asked her, does she want to be your girlfriend?" lulu said she was offering a solution
" Luluuu pleassss don't!!!! I beg you not to do that. leave it alone. Maybe he doesn't want to say it now. "stop me from Lulu.
" thank you, my friend, thank you for being there for me in every situation.Thank you for understanding me. Thank you for listening to all my complaints" I said at length.
" masama,," Lulu answered briefly but meaningfully.
this afternoon,, it feels very slow. I want to end all activities at school. I don't know it feels full. until the bell goes home my feelings are not good. I love Rama but on the other hand I started to feel uncomfortable with the relationship between us. Others thought we were lovers but the truth is not. when I explained to them that we were just friends but Rama actually did not like my explanation to them. sometimes it seemed wrong . it was in my mind to ask the clarity between us according to Rama's perspective but I always undo it.
" Well, are you dating Rama?" my classmate Bima once went along to ask that.
again - again I explained as to the others.
" but if not why, Rama always acts with people who like you" said Bima
" ah, really? how's sewot?" manya curious.
" for example, his attitude is the same Irfan . continue to be horrified in the class of Rama there is someone who likes to talk to you and he says love to you. You know what Rama did to that person?" . I just shook my head because I really didn't know.
" nearly jotos after a fight . good thing on the divorce"
" the real Bim"
" yes" replied Bima.
" it was a long time ago, yes, there was a fear Rama he sewot also the same me" said Bima while leaving me.
I who was left by Bima can only gawk like a fool.What kind of situation is this? there are people who like me he hates it, whereas he leaves me in an atmosphere of obscurity that he makes himself.hhhhh tired really is very tiring.should I start ignoring him?? but what about this feeling?? can it disappear with time?? I also don't know
