A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

UNCOMFORTABLE

In my new class .. I was really quiet. at break I never stayed in class again,,,,, I was,,, I hang out in Lulu's class sometimes in front of the ceremonial court or anywhere as long as there aren't too many people. I'm still with Lulu. sometimes Dina comes with me.

" are you okay ?" ask Lulu who can guess the look on my face

" i'm malass, my classmate keeps raving about me and Rama"

" they're just kidding don't get too in

put it into the heart"

" but I'm lazy to serve it. I know they're joking but sometimes I want to be mad at them"

" you are patient"

" i'm afraid this will continue"

" what about Rama??"

" He's indifferent it's like he's never greeted me"

" what really???" ask lulu not to believe it

" he never once approached my bench like there was a separation or distance"

" that's what he is"

" h ah don't talk about him. My appetite can - can be lost if you have to discuss him continue"

" What's Irfan? "

" yes, that's it, sometimes he comes to my class.he took me to the cafeteria but I told him to go first"

" you are the part of the person who really - really attention to you"

" try the same Rama instead you ngarepin more,,, "

" kasian yes Irfan, but how else as hard as I try to love him still I can't" I said with a blank look full of emptiness.

it is undeniable that I have been mean to Irfan .he who is always there, always wants to be with me, always wants to tell the world that I am his lover instead I always ignore him. but with Rama as indifferent as he towards me I miss him even more.Right said Lulu's love is complicated.

" what do they say if you move class"

" yes I know"

" do you want another classmate of Irfan's?"

" ampuuuun Lu. I don't want to be in the same class as two"

" kirain wants Irfan to be more romantic"

" uhhhh you keep ngarep".

bell went in separating my togetherness with Lulu. I returned my class again with full of laziness.

" this is the chocolate from Rama" suddenly Maura approached me and gave me my favorite chocolate.

" no. it's not from me. maura base " said Rama glaring while looking at me.

" he said it was for Meisya. You were always another mouth in the heart" said Maura.

I didn't say I let the chocolate stay on my desk without even touching it.

" Maura take your chocolate, you,,,!!" I shouted at Maura after a long time that chocolate was on my desk.

" are you sure you don't want to take it??" Maura asked back.

" i don't want chocolate anymore" I replied briefly.

" what I said...He won't give me" not the maura who spoke but Rama .he came to my desk carrying the chocolate that was lying on my desk.

" it turns out it's from Rama.His nature is always so unchanged.was said not from him after I refused just said from him. "my grumbling in heart.

" know from you I will take it" I said in my heart.

" right ... he was brown with Maura, he said to you.although he was a little kidding" said Dina slowly.

hhhhhhh,, I just took a deep breath - deep. It doesn't feel easy . I smiled alone no matter what....