A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

LAST HUG

Rama's arrival this time ended with a quarrel . I who always keukeuh will try to forget him and Rama who always begged to forever survive in this condition.

" when your mother came to see me I didn't think much of it, but when your mother went to see my mother and told me to leave you, I thought about it. maybe my mom looks ordinary - ordinary but I know she's worried and worried about me because of your mother. I don't want to burden my mom by thinking about this. Therefore . I beg you to understand,,,,,, I don't want to burden my mom with this,,, let's end everything that's been between us"

" See... Should we end up like this?? we fall in love, we love each other, we are comfortable with each other. Should we be separated because of this??"

" i'm sorry, I know you love me so much, but I can't keep us together. I don't want you to be a bad boy to your mother"

" i'm so hurt by your decision I don't know how painful this feels"

" if I remember my pain more than you, I have been waiting for you to express your heart. After that happens I have to part with you. I am sick, I am hurt, I am hurt, I am hurt,, I was very sad" I said as I tearfully.he approached me, sweeping away the tears that were coming out without pause.he hugged me as if he did not want to let go.

" this is your last hug. I will not forbid you to hold me longer" I still sobbed.

" can you promise to wait for me until I deserve to be the Rama my mother expected??" the door is still in the arms.

" as before I can't promise you anything" I said.

" i love you. You're my first love and I want to forever anchor my heart to you" she said, looking at me.

" Follow me.Focus on what your mother wants.Let me set my own heart" I said full of pleading.he did not answer.he hugged me tightly after releasing his kiss.

" don't miss me anymore" I asked in tears.he didn't answer.just the headband represents his heart for now.

I knew he started crying, and I couldn't see any of this. I couldn't see the pain of his heart, I couldn't see his suffering. I love him too much, but I have to be cruel to him.

" i'm sorry, 'cause I you're like this" again - again he just shook his head.

" excuse my mother.she has crossed the line. understand her for all her actions.don't let your heart to hate her"

" i never hated him even though he ruined my hopes and happiness"

" why is he so cruel to us?? "

" not cruel but want the best for his son.mamah said not everyone expresses his feelings of love with the same thing.had a different way.your mother loves you too much.you must realize that" I said with complete confidence