A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

BERSERKED AT HIM

There was a knock on the door from the direction of the living room when I was busy watching a romantic drakor.I was reluctant to open the door.It may be that if I did not open it he would go by himself.

but that knock was heard again until I couldn't help but open it.

" you!!!" greet me with a disappointed face.

" it's me, it's me, it's,,,!" answer that guy.

" i don't want to receive any guests especially now that my mom's not home"

" i'm begging you for a minute.I can't relax seeing you're mad at me"

" who's angry??" I asked still with a tinge.

but he did not remain silent . he came closer to me until the door opened by itself. I closed the door with a feeling of unworthiness.between happy, happy, the joy and fear that suddenly penetrated my pulse.

" it's wrong . obviously it's a mistake, I let a man go home without the presence of mamah" I said in my heart.

" alahhhh calm your heart Meisya.do not get carried away. later after settling the problem tell him to leave" said my mind also while taking a cup of tea for him.

" are you still mad at me???" as soon as he asked when we were sitting in the family room. I just kept quiet . difficult to answer the question.remember what happened in the school earlier. about his attitude that remained cowardly . about his attitude that does not reveal his feelings in front of others.

" haii, you're dumb. Are you still angry??" ask her again as if I didn't hear her question earlier.

" if you're not angry, where's your smile that I've always missed"

" you know my weakness" I said as if delirious.

" i love you. You have to be sure of the feeling of my heart"

" should I trust you??"

" why don't you ever dare say you love me in front of our friends??"

" does it all need to be done, after everyone knows very well that I love you??"

" i need a confession, is it wrong??!!"

" dear why is everything in question??"

" not in question but I did think you might be ashamed to love me"

" what are you talking about?? I'm proud to love you. I'm proud to be able to get your love, but I'm ashamed if I have to loudly declare love in front of everyone. maybe he was so brave when he said his feelings to you but I'm not him" explained the man who was none other than Rama.

" he's again he's the one you call in front of me.!!" I said a little high up so upset.

" dear...love me this way.I beg you!! don't be angry, don't think that no - no . I love you . how many times do I have to say it. Isn't that all you wanted to do?" he said while hugging me.

now I was in his warm embrace.for a moment we were silent only a silence that felt up to the heartbeat and the pounding of our breath as if sounding hunting each other.

" do you believe me??" he said as he looked at my face under his chin.

" this thing that makes me comfortable. hugging you I can forget all the complexities in my life.it feels like when with you I become a real person "he said as if moved.

" but .. sorry .. you can't stay here long . mamah is away afraid of being the gossip of people"

" well I understand" he replied with a smile.he stood followed by me. he hugged me. We faced each other - in front of. my hands twitched spoiled on his shoulders. Our eyes clashed against each other. His hands grabbed the waist. it was so beautiful that I felt at this moment, where the roar of the heart was turbulent, the burning love, the longing that had not yet disappeared and the eyes of each other were fixed on each other. I love him!!!! I'm crazy about her. I beg you not to let her go from before me at this time.I want to remain in her arms in my indulgence to her.

" Rama!!!!! let's go home" arrived - suddenly the cry of someone disperse everything.