A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

DON'T CRY

" please don't winissss.I can't see you crying" .

his words were so softly getting ripped apart my heart. My tears were flowing more and more. I wanted to shed all the flavors.love, heartbreak, upset, annoyed, irritated, longing and all that has been stirred up all this time in my heart.

" i'm tired, I'm tired.I want to move classes" I said no less.

" don't think too much, just ignore everything.don't be heard their words.Maybe someday they'll stop judging us" comforted her while clasping my hands so tightly.

" it's all so wrong, when you ignore me they talk about it, when you're just a little bit concerned about me they're so . I'm tired , I'm silent not not to hear it . I hate it!!! what's my fault???"

" you're not wrong, you're never wrong, don't blame yourself" he said, wiping away my tears.

he looked at me, he stepped closer and closer to me. He kept looking at me with a look of love that never goes out...the gaze that I always missed the gaze that always woke up every happiness in my heart. Unconscious I followed her. washed away with her smile. But I soon realized this is school!!! it's class time.

I let go of his hand.I immediately stepped into my class and I didn't hear him follow me.

In the classroom, there are teachers who teach.

" where are you from?" the question is so firm.

" i went to the toilet first ma'am" I answered, looking at everyone in the class, and they kept quiet, not cutting my explanation even though I realized they knew where I was.

" you are sitting at the back, the one at the back is going forward . It's sad for those who are late to class" he said. I also sit behind the back which is the risma sitting with Dina. happened to be a friend of Risma Semja not school I dudik myself. again - again alone.

Ten minutes later Rama came in.

" you want to go in or not take this lesson at once? " say he was even more resolute.

" come in" answered Rama.

" all right,, you're sitting at the very back, don't sit on your lap, you're sitting with Meisya, that's a booze for those of you who are late for your lessons" he said.

" good sir"

again they smiled meaningfully at me and Rama.

" be careful if you are going out" said Mr. Guru after Irfan sat next to me.

" how do you know?" chirping Maura

there was a growl in my heart. I was really angry with Maura. joking she really missed. There is a hand that tightly grasps my hand. she gives warmth as if to calm me. she looks at me as if she is talking "be calm" and as soon as my anger subsided. Rama's hand held me under the table. ahhh it felt so romantic. there was a fantasy that arrived - suddenly dancing in my heart. "this is how it feels if I'm as cool as I like?" I'm happy.the happiness that has been lost as if it re-touched my deepest heart.I am at peace,, I'm happyaa, I'm happy, ,, I'm in love, and my face is blushing. then the figure of Irfan flashed through my mind.I released the grip of Rama's hand.

some hurt with my happiness, some hurt with my love, I don't want to hurt him.

" i'm sorry Fan"

" i've hurt your heart.I don't want to do any of this but my instincts say something else" I said in my heart.

" DON'T BENGONG" arrived - Rama wrote the word and showed it to me. I soon realized from every daydream.