A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

LOVE STATEMENT

" how about now?"

" it's gone now"

" thank you for looking at me" he said again, clasping my hand.

" i was here to be with Lulu but not "

" it's okay - what.how is he doing now?"

" he's getting healthier"

for a moment we were silent . my heart began to rustle softly. My hand remained in his embrace. warm poking all over my body and again felt comfortable in his grasp. sometimes our gazes clashed with each other and "degg" the feeling was getting stronger in my heart. he looked at me I looked at him as if he wanted to vent the longing that had been tormenting us. I lay my head in his chest. I don't know if my conscience can no longer control me. He caressed my long hair and I let him. sometimes there is a fear of fear of kania or mamahnya come to us both but the comfort and love that roiled overcame the fear.

" i didn't see your mother" I tried to ask just to relieve the anxiety of being over

" it just so happens that there is another event with friends" .

the more comfortable I felt when I knew that his mother was away.I enjoyed the caress of his hands.I enjoyed his passionate gaze of romance I enjoyed his smile,, I enjoyed it all,, I enjoyed it all,, until without me knowing I often smile sweetly at her. want me to hug her, and not want to let go of her .

" did Irfan know you were coming here?" he asked suddenly.I immediately let go of his hand.I immediately stood up to see him .but he did not stand still he got up and immediately grabbed me in his arms.he hugged me from behind . his hand clasped tightly to my hand gave the calm that only with him did I feel it. His chin twitching spoiled on my shoulders making every breath so sweet in my ears.

" don't be angry.don't let this happiness pass like before"

" why is it that every time we're together you always say Irfan's name in front of me"

" i don't know.maybe because I often feel guilty because I love his lover" said Rama so beautiful in my ear. I was happy ,,, these words that I always waited from him. the declaration of love I always wanted from him.

I immediately turned my body.We faced each other I looked into his eyes deeply.

" who do you love?" I don't seem to believe what I just heard.

I am happy. as if dim in my heart to be a beautiful rainbow in the morning drizzle. I am happy ,, I let him hold me tightly I put myself in his love. I don't want anything to stand in our way , I don't want anyone to bother us. I no longer care that this house still has a canoe that can enter this room anytime.

" i love you" he said as he kissed my forehead.

" i love you so much" I replied without shame.he relaxed his arms to look me in the face and I looked at his face. Now I don't want to let go of this hug.

" but how's your mother?" my question was suddenly. Rama's face back grim. His embrace was not as heavy as earlier.

" how is what?" reply him

" he won't let you have a lover"

" do you know where?" ask him wonder.

" kania once met me. she said everything.The reason you never revealed even the cania who told me directly"

" is he really that brave"

" right, he was waiting for me at the school gate"

" yes aampuuun"

" i'm happy to know that I don't think anything stupid about you anymore"

" meaning?"

" i often think that you love other women"