A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

THERE'S GUESTS

" tok.tok.tok" the sound of the door knocking . then a mamah voice invited someone into the House.

" See, there's a guest"

" who?"

" Rama"

" just tell me I'm taking a nap"

" it's no good ah liein guest. anyways what's wrong you meet him. pity you know he far ngapelin you"

" your mother!!!"

" if not what is it?" the word mama still teases me.

" he's not my girlfriend, you should know that!!"

" never mind. Whatever your status is, you meet him first"

I immediately moved. there was a sense of happiness when I knew Rama who came to my house.I trim my hair, at a glance I reflected on my appearance.

" okay" I said to the mirror after seeing that I was tidy.

" hey." I said when I was in front of him.

he just looked at me.

" hello" I rebuked him, waving my hand in front of his eyes, and then he smiled sweetly at me. ahhh again - that smile.

" sorry, "he said.

" what's the matter you came here for??"

" our conversation wasn't over, but, at school, you just left regardless of me"

" what's not done, you've said"

" yes, but there's nothing you say"

" what should I say!!!"

" you don't give a reason why you're changing to me right now"

" should it have a reason??"

" must, so I know where my fault lies so I can fix it"

" can we end it all?"

" what should we end?? and we're all just starting?? or don't don't don't you don't want to let go of Irfan .??"

" Yes ... have you loved her and neglected my love?" he said as he got closer to me, as he usually does without permission to hold my hand.he kissed the back of my hand.

" don't do this" I said softly as she nodded, she just shook her head and clasped my hand even tighter.

" don't go!! don't ignore me, don't let your love for another"

" we can't be together, no matter how much love we still can't fight for it" I said, begging him to understand.

" i love you baby, I can't lose you"

" but I can't ignore your mother's rule"

" are you willing to wait for me until I finish my education and I succeed?"

" i can't promise anything.maybe when you've succeeded it will forget me and ignore me or maybe you even choose Yolanda"

" Geez, my dear. You're so jealous of her, yeah,,"

" no!!" answer me ketus

" know what jealousy is rich, I do too when you're with Irfan"

" look at me I'm jealous"

he just smiled seductively.

" evil!!" my spoken.

" you are evil and cruel!!!" ditch him

" you mean??"

" i am overcome with jealousy every day, with anger, , how tormented I am" he said seriously as he looked at me.

" you may never know that every day I follow you when you walk together, when you watch, look for novels, even when you visit Lulu, I didn't know Lulu was sick, but since I was following you, I also got to Lulu's house"

" really??" . he didn't answer he just nodded slowly.

" even Lulu knows that every day I follow you back home from school"

" why didn't Lulu ever say that?"

" because I forbid it!"

" why haven't I seen you?"

" because next to you is Irfan"