A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

THANK MY FRIEND

The waiting time came even though it felt so slow. when the break bell rang me and Lulu immediately went out of class looking for the figure of Rama. trying to find places - places he used to hang out no one. dikantin , in the library , in his class until I searched the hallways of the school building he still could not be found.

" where the hell is he" said Lulu who remained faithful to accompany me

" don't know Lu.. , "I answered uninspired.

" where else should we look?" ask Lulu

" you don't have to look for him anymore.we go back to class aja yu" replied I gave up.

I immediately turned towards where my class was.

" wait, Lu. isn't that him?" suddenly I stopped my steps when I saw the figure of Rama was in another class.

" that's it, yes, but why is he so indifferent to us. He's not usually like that" Lulu said

" maybe he didn't see us" I replied comforting myself

" he is with the gang hits again" said Lulu again

" let's just say Lu. We better get to class"

" will not be comfortable? won't find him??"

" no!!!" steady answers.

then we passed from there without meeting him. without talking about the thing that was about to be talked about. I don't know what feels empty in my heart. like sadness or some kind of worry about what has happened.Is it possible that I am heartbroken?? could this taste fade before it blooms ?? I didn't knowuu.

" don't think too much" said Lulu, who never stopped comforting me.

" no, I don't think about it at all" I replied lying.

but I realized that Lulu wouldn't be that easy to lie to.

until my class was a little treated with the joy of the other children . they were singing with Irfan .

" let's Lulu you want to sing what song Irfan is" suddenly Bima's loud voice surprised us.

" i want a song 'induced in the heart' from Arsy Widionto" Lulu replied.

sing with all of us Irfan.

**may want to meet still exist

want to hug still there

darling now can't

you've chosen it oooo

maybe when my heart is still dear

my fault cut off love

and now I'm sorry

miss only in the heart**

That's how the song is. I was swept away with every word he said. as if describing the anxiety I was feeling right now.

" you're so smart to insinuate me" I said to Lulu

" it's not insinuating, you're the one who feels insinuated" he replied innocently.

" it's up to you "I replied with a slight smile.

there was a little relief in my heart after we sang together. Lulu looks so happy to see me smile.

" thank you Lulu..thank you for accompanying me..comfort me .. be in every moment I have. "my words are in my heart.

" thank you, Alloh.you present a friend as good as Lulu" my gratitude to the creator.

One thing I realized this time was that friendship was more than anything. I was happy to have Lulu even though on the other hand I was still thinking about Rama. for a moment I could forget about Rama. ignoring the little heart has started to hurt because of the behavior of Rama. The anxiety there is a little subsided. thanks to everything.you guys seem to know what is going on with my heart. I shouldn't have been looking for where he was. I should have stayed in class with the rest of my friends.