A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

DIVIDER GAP

His eyes were so sad.I knew he was jealous.I knew there was also a burden he was bearing.Maybe his mother's anger and disappointment towards him. coupled with the arrival of a letter from Irfan to me. I did not dare to disturb him. I did not dare to add to the burden of his mind but I wanted him to know about the contents of the letter. want me to reveal that I am now free from Irfan . But he remains silent without asking.

until the time I got home from school I did not greet him. I let them all disperse, I let them go home. I was silent in the classroom waiting for it all to pass. I put my face to the table,,, I put my face to the table,, I want to take off all the fatigue that exists.

" See, let's go home" said Dina.

" just go first!!" tell Dina.

" well I go first" he said again as I passed. I just nodded.

After all that had passed, I straightened my body, I opened my gaze throughout the classroom, I thought that all had passed in fact there was still a silent figure in the class besides me.

" you haven't come home yet??" much

he just shook his head and I approached him.

" what are you??" I asked again. he took a deep breath. rubbed his face violently . he seemed to throw away all the burdens that had made him so tired.

" hiii.. Are you mad at me??" my question was to quietly hold back the crying that arrived - suddenly enveloped my eyes.he was still silent.he looked at me tenderly full of grief.he was sick and injured . I know that. maybe he didn't want to be with me anyway. I stood up and was about to step away but he immediately hugged me from behind.

" don't leave me" she said!!

" let's go home" asked me slowly, and he nodded in agreement.

on our journey as if a foreign figure, we fell silent as if enjoying every footrest that leads us on this journey.

" are you angry with Irfan's letter?" I asked in silence, he just glanced at me without speaking.

" he cut me off, now that Irfan and I had nothing to do with it" I finally ventured to reveal it, but his reaction was not what I had imagined. in my shadow maybe he would cheer happily over the news, but it was not!!! he just looked at me and he took my hand and held it as if he wanted to strengthen me.

" don't think I'm saddened by the letter" I told him.

" i'm sorry I thought it was a love letter or an apology to you"

" so if there's anything to it don't just pass by. listen to the explanation first"

" yes, I'm sorry," he said, clenching his grasp.His eyes were slightly glowing.but the cloud still controlled his eyes.

We keep walking together.Our hearts strengthen each other in silence.want me to ask how his mother but I immediately undo that intention.I do not want any thoughts that hinder our togetherness. we enjoy our togetherness that I know when I can still live. Now I realize there is an abyss that might separate us right now. although Rama did not reveal it but I can guess Rama's sadness is very much related to his mother.

" be strong, heart may soon be the pain that is truly afflicting you"