A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

BREAK UP

I saw it, there was a reluctance to open it let alone read it, but it immediately occurred to me if I did not read it how I knew the contents inside.

slowly I began to open the envelope that was in my hand.I opened a sheet of kerta s love purple light so soft. neat,, very neatiii,, that's the figure of Irfan who is full of art.

***Maybe it's a little late, but I need a while to think about it.

know Meisya.. I love you more than you know. But what is my power to only give love without reply . I know you've been pushing your heart too hard to open my presence, but you haven't put your heart on me. I appreciate all your efforts to love me even if it doesn't work to the end of my patience.

I know you never look at me the way you look at her, I realize there's never been a longing in your heart for me even though I've always pretended not to know it.

I love you and I don't want me to burden you with something you can't do. Every time I take you to meet, every time I visit you, every time we walk together I know you're burdened with it. forgive me for making you uncomfortable with me. Thank you for trying to open your heart to me. Thank you for introducing me to the sweetness of love even without reply.

At that time,,, I was with others I didn't forbid you to prejudge me. Whether you think I'm cheating, I'm double or I don't respect you, whatever I'll accept.

MEISYA WIJAYA, therefore, I have decided that between us since this time there is no bond whatsoever .you are free without having to think of me. even so you should know I still love you. You take good care of yourself - well. we remain friends . thanks you have become part of the story in my life.

IRFAN***

I was pensive after reading it. so much appreciation he had for me. He did not blame me even though I was so sinful to him.

" what's it all about??" asked Dina. I handed the paper let Dina know the contents so that someone knows how good an Irfan figure.

" so moved!!" dina's moans made my heart slightly torn apart.

" i accept your decision Fan.I hope you are happy, can find your true lover who can repay all your love, all your kindness.I'm sorry I could never do that" I said in my heart.

at this time I can not guess the content of my heart between happy and sad to fight each other's strength in it. I'm glad I finally got out of the shackles of love with Irfan and now I won't sin against him anymore, but I'm sad to remember his suffering for all my nature and attitude towards him. he didn't blaspheme me, he respected and appreciated me.

" what is that letter??" I don't know when the figure of Rama came before me. He looked at me with a million questions in his gaze. For a moment I just kept silent I didn't know what to say. but I didn't want him to misunderstand.

" a letter from Irfan" I answered a little hesitantly

" you want to read it too??" ask him not to suspect.

" do not want!! " the answer was short while passing by.

" why always so...every problem always just silences me,, try to understand me for a moment. when I have to say here that this is a breakup letter from Irfan!!" my grunts are erratic, but I can't help his departure.