A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

LEARN TO IGNORE IT

This place... a passageway formed between space ... and space. as if it was destined to be a witness to the journey of my love story with Rama. of course also with the school gate and pak sattam😁. when we both feel like other students should not pass through this place, nature seems to give us permission to give time to express what is becoming our mess.

" are you mad at me because I didn't come to your house on Saturday?? I'm sorry!!!" said reassuring.

" i'm not mad at you" I said flatly.

" look me in the eye.why do you always waste your face" she asked.I couldn't look at her, she was too charming to look at me in anger.

then he strengthened his hand until I suddenly glanced at him.

He smiled spoiled, he looked at me softly. There is love there longs no love all radiated in the light of his eyes.

" how could I be angry with you" I said softly making his love even more blazing.

" you know, I miss you so much. I'm crazy for this feeling" he said again, playing with my finger.

I looked at him, I let this gaze be as adrift as ever. It turns out that because of love I can be happy just because I look at him. for a moment I forgot my anger at his mother. for a moment I forgot my anxiety for a moment I forgot the fortress of strength I had built since this morning.

" don't do this this wrong" I said as if warning myself.

" what's wrong" he said, asking questions.

" it's wrong.I want to go to Lulu instead stuck here" I said to divert the conversation.

i'm nodding.

" must I take you??"

" no need. I can do it myself"

" can you just stay here until the break is over??" my heart immediately agreed, because I really didn't want to leave him.

" don't ever leave me. Please stay here with me" she asked again.

now I know what he meant every time he asked me not to go away from him, maybe because he already knew between us now there was a gap that could separate us at any time.

" all right. I'm here" I said resignedly.

happiness he was clearly seen in the face of his handsome. he was charming . still I was stunned when I looked beautiful eyeballs. I should have started to hate him, I should have started to ignore him, ignore his figure,,, I should have started to hate him,, ignoring her feelings of disregard for our love that is getting more and more firmly entrenched in the heart.I should start to ignore this truly innocent feeling. we love each other but why do we seem to be sinners in love.We are happy but this happiness becomes a disappointment for our parents.I had thought maybe our love is selfish love,, because each of our happiness becomes the disappointment of our parents.

We were pensive .we just enjoyed the silence that was present between us.

" today I will let you be with him.In the future you must be stronger to learn to avoid him" whispered my deepest heart.

I want to express all the unrest in my heart. want me to say what has happened without his knowledge. I want to say that his mother met my mother.but I immediately controlled all my disappointments . the bell rang I immediately stepped away regardless of him walking behind me. I had to get used to this. I had to be able to without him in my heart. I love him but I appreciate the feelings of both my parents more. I want to fight for my love but I'm too tired with all this. I let this leg step without him. although empty but I try to stay strong.