A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

WISH HAPPY

In the morning, I was surprised by the various kinds of parcels on the table in my class.no longer Rama who waited for me at the school gate.not anymore Rama's smile that makes me happy to start every morning at school, no longer a poem on the board, no longer a painting of flowers. every day there are stored on my desk.my mysterious surprise that Every day is endless.a rose even next a bunch of roses ,a box of my favorite chocolates, a novel, even a love letter containing the romance of adolescence did not miss being sent to me from someone who really I and anyone did not know. because what I want is not all this, I just want a warm smile Rama who welcomes me every morning....

as beautiful as any flowers sent to me will not be able to replace the beautiful look of the mama in the morning.

the romantic love poem that was directed at me will not defeat the beauty of our momentary journey.Every surprise I received actually strengthened the hope of love for Rama. again Rama who was in my mind.

Today in the break hours I and Lulu remain in class. did not think to leave the bench even though only for the cantin. many other children who just relax in class.

" Yes .. I want a story" said Lulu

" just the story, not from before you've not stopped the story here and there" I said as if not serious.

" seriously Syya" Lulu said again

" yes.yes. well, ,ayo the story I listen to "

" i met Rama yesterday"

" how on, is he asking me? is he okay?" cut me off so much as I knew that what Lulu was going to talk about was Rama.

" doesn't it. It's my turn to talk Rama your eyes immediately aghast as if to get out of his petals,, curious huh?" lulu said so mock me.

" you're right too" I said not evasively.

" i ventured to ask Rama why he was away from us, but he turned into indifferent to you. I said I was afraid you were wrong with him"

" he answers are simple, he's afraid to stay close to you, to be a hindrance to you and your secret pans. maybe if he's not close to you the person who loves you will dare to show themselves"

" he wants you to be happy, he said he was happy if you are happy" continued Lulu.

" did you tell me how messed up I am right now??"

" no, yes, I'm sorry. I don't dare say it. I'm afraid if I say you're like a broken heart later discovered that you love heavily with Rama. you said yourself do not want to say it before Rama said first his feelings" said Lulu with a sad face.

" is he happy now Lu?"

" he's the same, I can see the sadness in his eyes when the story is about you."

" what does he really want??"

" i don't know, he wants you to be happy even with other people when you're happy with him. Actually you know what your heart is about but why it all looks so complicated. You're selfish with your own heart, try if any of you dare to say your heart honestly , it won't all be like this"

" can't Lu. It's hard.it's hard"

" you suffer because of your dishonesty on your heart"

I was just silent . true Lulu said.we suffered because of our dishonesty on our hearts .