A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

ACUH

I often expected a class with Rama. Apparently now Alloh granted my expectations.but unfortunately the situation is different. Currently there is a distance that stretches between me and him. I can't get as close as I used to.

I opened my eyes to see my new class. I chose the second bench from the back after I saw Rama filling the third bench from the front. deliberately I did it because I did not want to be in front of him or unload beside him. I put my foot in my new class.

" hm.hm.hm.." they cleared their throat.I ignored it.

" the love that came back" they said, I don't know what it meant.

" i deg-degan you know" said another.

I stay indifferent. Rama glanced at me, I also remained indifferent.

" Ram,, Ram.. This is your chance.. don't want to be stabbed!!!" .

the one being spoken to did not reply.

I opened the book as if I were writing something.

" Meisha... Meisya Wijaya ..where is Irfan??" ask Adi who is now my classmate.

" in his class "I answered flatly while looking at the book in front of me.

" ahhh you .. can not be joked" said Adi again.

I just looked at him and smiled.

" Ram..do you want one bench with Meisya" there are people who talk like that.

I don't know what expression on Rama's face .I don't know if he answers any of his friends' questions.

" kok Rama so quiet rich gini anyway.in the past we were first class he always said... Meisya it.pujaan heart, beware if you dare to disturb Meisya" said Maura who was in first class with Rama.

" the real one??" tanya Adi is getting excited to disturb Rama.

the disturbed remains unmoved. momentarily the atmosphere became silent.seen from the corner of my eyes Rama was moving away somewhere.he was completely indifferent.

" you always expect a good attitude from him, "that's what my heart says.

" cie ... cie who felt gerogi,, straight out of class" they unceasingly disturbed Rama . he just glanced.

" are you going to the cafeteria?" ask Rama who he knows.

" who are you?? Meisya times invited" again - again Adi joking.

I just glanced at him indifferently.

" yes if no one wants to go to the cafeteria "he replied as he passed .

" meisya said put buyin brown ya" shouted maura.

" buy it yourself!!" answer Rama .

It feels a little scary to imagine a year ahead in this situation. "may it pass quickly" I whispered in my heart. "may you forget what was between me and Rama. you guys are too judgmental of us. between us nothing ever happened .we're just friends who are stuck feeling blocked by selfishness . "

my countryman's name is dina. I hope he can be as good as Lulu. although no one will ever be able to replace Lulu in my heart.

" they joke, I don't have to put it in my heart" said Dina calming.

I smiled at him.

" i'm sorry, you must not be comfortable with me"

" not really .not much mind. We can be friends" .

We started learning as we should.

in this class I served as a secretary. I part recorded the lesson in front of the class, recorded the lesson agenda and recorded anyone who did not enter school.

actually I do not want to be part of it. it turns out the same class he wasuuu uncomfortable...