A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

PILLOWFUL

The door leaf was heard squeaking when it slammed so strongly.Rage was seen in the look on his face.dark red adorned his every gaze.

" you have disappointed your mother!!!" when entering the family room.

" what do you teach, which are the rules of the mother?? where is your obedience that I have been proud of. I really disappointed!!! very disappointed!! my proud son dared to break the rules just because of a woman!!!" such was the expression of the anger of his mother Rama.

" i'm sorry mom....!!!"

" pack your things!! we're moving out of here, you're going to change schools!!!"

" don't buuu... I beg you!!! "

" what else must I do to get in your way!!!"

" i love her, until whenever it's. Even if my mom moves my school I'll still love her, I'll keep looking for her"

" good !!! now you have the courage to challenge mom!!!"

" it's not challenging buuu but I'm defending myself. I don't want my mother's attitude to make me a selfish person"

" mother is tired of realizing you don't respect mom. You dare to go to the house of women together with her. where's the face of the mother???"

" this must be ended immediately .however, you are afraid something is out of your control" cried his mother.

" don't separate me and Meisya. I beg you to understand this time only. I promise I will be more active in learning, I will focus on my goals, even though I have a lover"

" no!! once not still no!!! if you break mom's rules, what about kania?? you're her sister, you're her role model.you let that mother down is the same as disappointing kania. if you're able to lie behind mom how about kania. I don't want you guys to live in chaos. understand that"

" mom only knows the rules and desires but I don't understand the reality of life!!" rama said as he passed leaving his mother still covered in anger.

Rama went into his room.he slammed his body on the bed. he was angry, he was disappointed, he was sick . when everything he wanted, when he wanted to be understood it was incomprehensible. he wanted to rebel, he wanted to leave, he wanted to enjoy freedom like a bird that could fly at any time and whistle cheerfully... since entering Kindergarten until now High School he is always required to be the first just to be the pride of his mother when gathered with his extended family. no matter he was wanting and did not want to learn his mother always requires him to study until sometimes Rama felt bored with various books. this lesson was done without being able to be ignored just for the sake of his claim that he wanted to know where the skill of Rama lies.

" i'm tired mom,,, "

" fatherhhh, why is this cruel mother to me?? am I wrong to love someone??"

" it is so hard to fight for my love.every time I want to reach for the trials come and come again.when can I have this love completely? every happiness I have with her why should it end with suffering that requires me to leave her??"

" Yeah, why is our love so hard to have? where's the fault of me and us?? among people who are so free to enjoy love, we are always separated by circumstances??? Meisya,, could it be that you are my match?? do you still care about my love?? after so many times I broke your expectations, after so long we waited for each other but reality was always a constraint, would you wait for me to become the Rama my mother expected??" rama's inner screams were full of grief.