A LOVE THAT WAS NEVER OWNED

SINGLE-HANDEDLY

Today Lulu hasn't gone to school . During the break I tried to reconcile with my class. Dina accompanied me after buying a snack from the canteen.

" you don't want to get a bag, aren't you hungry?" ask Dina

" no ah, I don't have an appetite anymore"

" if you want food I take it, don't worry"

" yes, thank you"

I turned back the book again.I continued to read it even though it did not enter my mind what I had read.

" you're not kantin?" suddenly Irfan entered my class.The other friends glanced at me. Dina also understood that she had immediately passed from my side.

" n't ah"

"do you want anything? let me buy it"

" don't worry about the bell getting in the sound"

" are you really not hungry?".

I just shook my head

" rehearsed from Lulu? it looks like he hasn't come in today"

" not yet.this morning I went to his class he was still sick"

" i hope he gets better soon" Irfan said.

I looked at the door of my class Rama was about to enter the class but he did not so after he saw there was Irfan near me. I pura - pura did not see it.

" it looks like you need a book to read. tomorrow I bring a novel . I happen to have a good novel." said Irfan as he glanced at the book I was reading.

" yes, did you lend it to me?" .

" willing to come back again or not it's up to you.want a new one can also. later after school we go to my paforit book place.we buy a new one" irfan said as if looking for an opportunity to walk together with me.

" that already exists, it does not need a new one" I said hurriedly afraid Irfan continued to invite me.

the bell came in ringing. Irfan walked out of my classroom to his class and shortly afterwards Rama entered, past my desk.he kept a wide variety of food on my desk.

" eat, you'll be hungry" he said, passing by.

no doubt, despite trying to cover up what he did again - again my classmates saw him.

" where am I Ram??" ask one of them.

" where is what??"

" the same time Meisya thanks me no. I'm also the same temen you"

" well ditu dares.don't just tell others to love Meisya" Maura joined nimrung.

" h, you're always fussing about the trivial"

rama said while looking at me. I pretended not to see it. I kept quiet. wanted me to run away from this class. wanted me to yell at them but I couldn't. in this class I was right myself. want me to ask them what is my fault with you??? I'm no one why you guys are so happy to judge me!!!! what else has never had someone you like?? was it wrong that I was close to Rama?? we never dated, please appreciate us!!!! my grumbling in my heart.

I left my class, followed by Rama from behind me. I sped up my pace wherever I ran after me.

" where are you going?" he said while pulling my hand.

" are you crying?" asked her as she looked at the clear puddles hanging on my eyelids. I sobbed bitterly,, I was sad, , I couldn't help but cry.he looked at me with a look no less pitiful than me.