My Life Journey
86. overflow of emotions
after shopping I immediately walked home, on the way I held back my emotions because of mother's words earlier, it felt like I wanted to sink them all to the bottom of the sea, let them be aware of their words.
do they think I'm a cheap girl,?do they think because I'm a poor man I keep committing sins? really outrageous of them, his style alone pretentious faith but his deeds no ahklaq at all.
even though I am a poor person but I still have ahklaq, I still know what is right and what is wrong, what is sin and what is not, and what is not, this time I do not care about sin even though you are parents but if your actions have gone too far do not get me wrong against you.
already home even I still nagging nagging myself, I went straight inside through the mother on the terrace, I put groceries on the table with a rough.
braaakk..
" what's up, tia.?
mom came straight into the house, maybe surprised to hear me slamming groceries.
"silence withholds emotion
" tia what's up..? why go home angry.?
" i met my mother when shopping buk, mareka
" mother has said that you are not ready with the words of people you better be at home.
" it's not a problem not ready buk I don't accept that I'm told cheap women who sleep as much as men.
I overflowed my emotions at home, I couldn't hold it anymore.
" patiently patiently fasting again do not get angry like that, then even you who lose, ibuk advised.
" but I don't accept buk want it to feel like I'm stuffing their mouths with chili, let their mouths get spicy all the time.
" patient tia month fasting is not good angry, angry,
" hahhh, sigh trying to calm down
" it's quiet now, right.? shower there so that the head is cold, facing the problem does not have to be with emotion tia, must think calmly so that the problem does not get worse.
" yeah, sorry, but she was carried away by emotions.
lalau I rushed to clean myself, so that I could be calmer and could control emotions.
I must be calm must not be provoked by emotions, can I later even fail to make sella aware, yes you must be calm should not be provoked by their speech.
finished cleaning myself I sat in the front room, while playing the hanfon, I saw there were texts coming in and there were unanswered calls as well and then I saw one by one it turned out from mas anto.
" tia was able to text from mas ardi said you have come home and you threaten mother in the village is that true.?
" yes, I came home yesterday, I did not threaten to just warn them if they accused without proof that they could go to prison,
no I sangaka mas ardi pitted to mas anto, while only mas anto not at home can they pitted my family.
" what else is there.?
" nothing was wrong, I happened to walk this morning and met my mother at the vegetable seller's place, and they accused me of sleeping as much as men, yes, I do not accept it.
" yes mas ngrti kok tia, accused tanapa of doing it is not good.but remember do not fight in public places it will embarrass yourself.
" yes, that's not going to happen.
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