Seabadi Edelwai..

Chapter 90 A week's request.

Until 5 minutes of waiting, no reply made me decide to go to sleep.

But once the intention to close my eyes just did, there was absolutely no drowsiness that came, even though I forced it until the eyes felt spicy I did not go to sleep.

The shadow of Dirga's sad face teased me, as if teasing me to keep thinking about her last words.

The last words I heard before I left him in front of the cafe.

("Before you truly become a Grand Fiancee, let me give you my full love until next week, I want to spend that little time with love and togetherness, even if it's only one week, and,, allow me to make up for all the time that was once wasted, would you like??")

This sentence was like 2 extremely sharp blades,

my heart was afraid to refuse or to accept her wish.

On the one hand, I do not want to betray the Supreme who really sincerely loves me, but on the other hand, I do not want to miss a moment with Dirga that I have always dreamed of.

Dirga was my first love, which I believed long ago that the throne in my heart could not be replaced by anyone, despite the fact that I alone shifted the position of Dirga by including Agung in my love story.

This is not the fault of Agung, nor is Dirga's fault, it is purely my fault that was too rushed to decide something, until now I was stuck in an ambiguous situation.

If I could turn back time, I would correct all my mistakes by not giving Agung hope, and continue to wait for Dirga to return in my life, but all could not return, time goes on and the reality is next week the engagement will take place, while Dirga will only be a part of my past.

And I never know in the future how this heart can be breastfed forgetting all about Dirga and his love.

Drrr..... Drrtts...

my phone's shaking, though,

I glanced, my heart asking who in the middle of the night was calling me.

My heart is beating, my eyes are wide open to see the name of the caller.

"Dirga??"

I said slowly as I reached for the phone lying not far from me.

With hesitation, I picked up the call and stuck the phone in my ear.

my eyes glanced at the wall clock that showed at 1 am.

📞🧒Halo Vin, I know you can't close your eyes tonight just like me, so I dare call...

L'm.. I am now restless and longing for you. I guess you feel the same way...

📞🙎Already Dir, do not continue like this, I just do not want anyone hurt.. I just want some quiet after our meeting.

📞🧒I know it Vin. Well, maybe I'm overconfident, thinking what I feel is the same as you feel, but for my last words before you leave, I hope you can grant it. After that, maybe I will be calmer as well as you can be more relieved to live your life with the Great later.

Dirga went back to discussing her silly idea of wanting to be with me for a week before the engagement took place.

I was silent, unable to say anything.

📞🧒Halo... Vin... Halo... Why silence??

I know you want to, too, I know.. You also miss...

Hello Vin, speaking Vin, replied I....

There were several times Dirga called out my name, while I could only smother my own mouth, I did not want Dirga to hear my sobs, though Finally..

📞🧒 Vin, are you crying?? I'm sorry Vin... Forgive me for my selfishness,,

I will no longer force you, I promise... I'll go far from your life.I hope you and the Great are always happy..

Good night Vina...

Click! Tut....

Call disconnected,,

"First love??"

I said softly, I did not expect that I was Dirga's first love.

That means, between Me, the Great and Dirga each is the first love.

How can this happen with 3 people who experience feelings of love with the first love story in each main cast.

Is this just a coincidence?

I just hope, the best destiny that will lead me to the end of this love story, to whom? I just surrender everything to God and let the time.

On the other side of my heart, there was a deep scratch of disappointment, when hearing Dirga give up and say she wanted to get away from me, the feeling of unwillingness and fear of losing again was now creeping slowly in my heart.

The incredible happiness I just met, I have to give up again.

Can I forget that the real Dirga has confessed all the feelings I have been questioning for so long?

I wiped my tears, took a deep breath and was confident of the decision I would take this second.

Immediately I sent a message to Dirga.

Just a few seconds, though,

a message I got back.

*Are you serious Vin?? you sure??..I feel like I'm dreaming, thank you so much for the opportunity you gave me Vin...*

I did not reply to Dirga's message again, clutching my phone in the chest and carrying it in a dream as beautiful as I hope tomorrow with Dirga, even if only one week.

......................

I woke up when Agung called me.

A Vidio call at 6am Sunday.

"Halooo dear.... just woke up....?"

His words were seen being outside the room using a sports shirt.

"Yes, ehh... Why call?? vidio call again?? He said he won't call me until Sunday??"

I was relaxed as if nothing had ever happened to my heart which was in fact in a state of confusion, indecision and fog.

"It's like that, but because you disappeared there's no news, I got anxious, ehm.... You're fine... but how.... like your eyes are puffy dear?? you cry??"

Agung was quite observant in noticing the awkwardness on my face.

"It's natural donk, right just woke up, haven't bathed, haven't dandan... That's why you're doing it early in the morning already outside??"

I tried to dodge, and divert the conversation.

"Oh, that... Ehm.. This I ran out early in the morning. Yes, you took a shower... I want to continue the sport, Btw..... Today what is the plan??"

"Ehm.. There's an office event, maybe a mall, so sorry if later I'm hard to contact.."

My Kilah.

"OK sip... be careful yes..."

"Okay, yeah... I want to get ready. bye"

"Bye dear"

I closed the vidio call joint, then exhaled.

"I'm sorry I had to lie again.... "

Say slowly.

An hour passed, though,

I came out of the room with a neat appearance while looking at the phone I was playing.

A message I sent to Dirga, please,

"I'm ready.we met at the cafe yesterday"

Without long waiting, I received a reply.

"I'm OTW"

My heart was pounding, but I could not hide a smile from my face that might have seemed radiant this morning.

"Tumben Vin, it's still early in the morning and it's tidy.. It's Sunday, usually it's still rolled in a blanket!"

Babe Mama.

"Ehm... This is Ma, there is a children's office event.Maybe Vina will come home a little slow, say Papa do not have to wait for kayak semalem... Vina casian"

Again I lied about making excuses for my parents' office.

"Ohh.. That's it, be careful son... breakfast first!!"

Mama pulled up a chair and sat down with me for breakfast, while Papa, still not coming home from the morning run that she routinely does every week.

Can't wait to leave, I sipped a glass of warm tea made by mama in one shred.

"Ma... Vina's gone yes.. "

"Loh.. You didn't have breakfast first, did you,,?"

Mama looked at me in wonder.

"Later in the office, afraid the others long wait for Ma..."

I got out of my chair and passed in front of my mother.

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