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Chapter 147 Feeling meaningless

Leaving the love I just felt so beautiful was not easy.

Being away from Vina really makes me miss, and the feeling of wanting to meet will definitely be the main thing and the most I've been waiting for.

This is not the first time I was away from Vina, because long before this I had not looked at her for years just met through the voice, but somehow, sad and as if not willing to part from him, maybe because of the status I had just seen as his lover, while at that time was no more than his best friend.

There was not a single day that I passed without missing Vina, and sometimes when Vina did not answer my phone, all I did was busy myself with all my activities here,, and comforting myself that after all this business is done, I will soon be going home to Vina and that engagement will be the beginning of a more serious relationship.

Then the spirit will again flare up and burn all the anxiety I feel.

3 Very heavy months almost finished, I don't know how many hidden longings, I keep a tight meeting for me to pour on him when I come home later.

A week before my return,

Early in the morning, Mama called me.

"Hello Gung...."

"Yes Ma...."

"You haven't opened Mama's message, yes,,"

"Oh... What message did mom send? Agung has not had time to check the incoming message"

"Mom sent us a photo of the clothes we're going to wear in your fiancee's way, it's done."

"Oh yeah...??? How's Ma, good no, how's Vina?"

"Yes, it's nice. It's really fancy, just take a look,,"

"Okay Ma.. ntar..."

I hurriedly opened the photo that Mama sent, my eyes sparkling to see how beautiful the clothes were, while imagining how graceful Vina would be when she wore them.

"Hello.. Gung, how'd you see?"

My Mother's greeting resuscitated me.

"Eh. yes. Yes Ma.. already, it's cool Ma..."

Reply staggered.

"When did you come home?"

"Saturday Ma..."

"Kok mepet Gung... is not tired?"

"Yes Ma, but later Agung try to go home sooner"

Shortly after the conversation between Mama and I was over, the call ended.

I tried to call Vina, but until I tried to call several times, Vina did not take the call from me, I sighed, I said,

The bad taste infiltrated slowly, for some reason since yesterday, Vina felt avoid me, especially today.

I ended my anxiety by choosing to go to the cafe and busied myself there until night.

Nights, evening,

After I finished cleaning up, I went back to checking my phone, it was the same..

No word from Vina, though,

Ahhe... Vina, don't you miss me like I miss you in every breath?

So busy is your business, that you can't give me the news? what are you doing now?

I pressed the call button, a busy tone greeted me, lethargic.

A bad feeling came back to my heart, calling who is Vina? until my phone call was ignored by him.

Could Daniel?

or the... The aerospace?

I breathed, my heart was so sad, suddenly felt like an insignificant person in Vina's life, when I had just tasted the sweetness of the love that Vina offered at that time, but now... I feel further away, even further away from when I was his best friend.

I don't know how many times I've called her, but Vina's number is still busy.

I stopped my phone call, lay down on the bed, put an arm on my forehead, my mind glared far away, along with the pain that kept creaking in my heart, thinking of Vina, which I didn't know...do you think of me once in his days.

Half an hour passed, though,

When my eyes were about to fall asleep, a Video call forced my eyes back open,

I breathed a sigh of relief, when I found out that Vina had made a video call to me.

The longing that was so passionate made me quickly accept the Video call.

"Haloo"

"I'm sorry..."

The answer was short, I saw Vina's tense face,

"Who's the same call again gini nights?"

I tried asking, and hoped Vina would not be offended by my question.

"Ehm.. that's..eh.. same phone..mm same Nina, yes.. same Nina"

Vina fluttered, and answered stammeringly, it made me even more certain that there was something Vina was hiding from me, She was nervous and sweating.

Oh my God, what is this feeling? why does it feel so painful, as if it is being betrayed..

"Darling, you're sweating.. The weather's hot again??"

ask me again,

"Ehm... Not exactly the same, maybe the effect of taking the drug,"

Vina's answer surprised me, as soon as the suspicion turned anxious, I was worried about Vina.

"Dear you are sick??. So how are you doing now? what's the complaint, have you been to the doctor??"

My brother then got out of bed

"What the hell is Gung, lebay deh... I just catch a cold, take medicine and rest and get well"

I gulped, when my anxiety was even perceived as lebay by Vina,

"Honey, you don't do that ah, don't ignore the same health, don't underestimate the symptoms of colds"

"Yes. yes... bawel... .!!!"

vina replied with a smile.

"Oh yeah, have you seen your shirt for the week?? I sent Mama her picture"

I switched the chat, though,

"Yes, it's, it's cool... I like it"

vina replied, but her face had no expression.

"You must be getting prettier in that dress.."

My praise, my,

"What day are you coming home?"

It seems that Vina doesn't like to hear my compliments, she tries to divert the conversation,

"Saturday morning, why?? can you wait to see me?? what do you want to bring?"

I deliberately tempted Vina to melt the awkward atmosphere between Me and Vina.

"Ehm.. You are besides the dreadlocks, now you also add pede and ge er!! don't bother, just be careful I'm happy"

Hearing Vina speak like that, instead of playing happily with my heart, this kind of attention from Vina was extremely rare, and when I got it, I felt like I was the happiest person in the world.

"Oh God.... I didn't choose a woman wrong, thank you for making her my soul mate!!"

Unknowingly, this speech just popped out,

Hearing my words, there was no response from Vina, she just kept quiet and chose to end the Video call, citing drowsiness.

I just nodded my head to his will when my heart still misses him so much, but what I can do, Vina is not as long as I think.

I could only sigh, realizing that until this second, it might have been Vina

still not completely open my heart to me, patient.it is only that word that I can seem to pin on my heart that is worried.

The night was high, my eyes could not be closed, my mind was far away, between faith and fear, I was sure, this love was so strong for her,,, this love was so strong for her,, but I am also afraid if it turns out that Vina still can not give her heart sincerely to me, then how a relationship can run if one of them still has doubts, even though more or less a week, this engagement will happen.

O Lord, this heartache.what should I do, if at any time it turns out to be true, that Vina still holds Dirga in her heart instead of Me, is,,

Shouldn't I call Vina until her miss is made,

with a broken heart, I sent him a message.

"Honey from today, until Sunday, I will not call or video call, deliberately So that when we meet, miss us Will be very hot"

5 minutes, 10 minutes, 15 minutes to half an hour I waited to look at my phone screen, no reply from Vina, no reply,

could it be true that He is sleepy, and is currently asleep.

I forced my eyes to shut, as I felt the heat evaporating with the blurry eyes..

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