Seabadi Edelwai..

Chapter 163 Feeling lost

I stare at Papa's serious eyes and look at me sharply.

Seeing that I gulped,

How could Papa guess that the man I was telling you about was Dirga, but none of what I just told you led to Dirga.

"Vin, why shut up? is it true, the person who once broke your heart and now comes back again that makes your engagement bond and Agung finally run aground is Dirga?"

Ask Papa again.

I looked back at Papa's face, sangar and there was no smile at all.

Oh my God... How is this??

Truly, the fear in my heart when it turns out Papa will even hate Dirga if I justify his guess.

How'this??

What do I have to answer??

I bit my own lips, holding back my fear.

"Vin, just answer right or wrong if Dirga is the one?"

Mama continued while caressing my head.

I looked down, then nodded slowly.

I resigned, if after this Papa will hate Dirga and forbid Me to have contact with him again, because it is considered as the culprit of the breakup of the relationship between Me and the Great.

Though earlier, Papa looked so close and liked Dirga.

Ahhh.. why my relationship with Dirga can never be smooth...

I'm wasting my breath.

"Papa had guessed!!"

Papa's words made me swallow again and mentally prepare to wait for the next sentence of anger from Papa's mouth.

"What did Pa expect?"

Ask Mama confused.

"Also there's something between Vina and Dirga"

Papa changed his sitting position.

"Pa... Vina Please.. Don't hate Dirga...."

I said slowly as I ventured to look at Papa, hoping Papa would forgive everything that had happened.

"Hate?? Why should I hate?"

Answer Papa casually,

I looked up at Papa's answer, though,

"Did Vina not hear me wrong? Papa doesn't hate Dirga??"

I don't believe it.

"Yes, why should Papa hate Dirga, he's not wrong, what's wrong is you! and you should be the one Papa hates!!"

Papa's forefinger feels right against my heart.

My face turned lethargic when I heard Papa's last sentence"

"Yes Pa... Vina was wrong.., Vina apologized...."

I looked down and didn't feel my tears. It hurts this heartache when hated by parents themselves.

Mama hugged me, she hugged me,

Soon Papa got out of his chair, and moved to sit next to me,

"But because Papa's Son is just you, it's never Papa's going to do it"

Herr that, just touch it I turned to Papa and wiped my tears and looked deeply into the eyes of this man who is very dear to me, Papa's smile spread, Papa's smile spread, and Papa stretched out his arms waiting for my embrace to be anchored in his chest.

I quickly clutched the gallant body, while crying out in tears.

My tears broke, especially when Papa shook her head and rubbed my hair gently.

Like a little boy with his father.

"Make this Vin's lesson, follow your heart, for the heart will never lie, never make a decision when the heart is in turmoil, no matter what,, and all must be thought out and weighed before deciding anything"

Papa's message to me.

I nodded, though,

"Yes Pa... Vina promise...."

Seeing that, Mama smiled in relief, and hugged me along.

"Thank God it is good, willing to give up and not mind everything that happens, just try to imagine if your Fiancee is not Great, there are you who will suffer, just try to imagine if your Fiance is not Great, maybe even Dirga became a victim of his anger, because not everyone can accept being treated like this, as if toyed with"

I'm mangosteen.

Papa is right, Agung is too kind, patient and mature, if the incident at the airport yesterday happened to other men, maybe Dirga will be battered made, but not with Agung, Agung, He was so good at keeping his heartache, hiding his wounds so patiently.

Ah... Great, thanks for your patience all along, you taught me a lot of things I didn't get from others.

"Yes, later if the atmosphere has begun to calm down, you invite Dirga here, as a girlfriend, not as a friend of Junior High"

Ledek Papa to me and then smile.

I wiped the corner of my eye from the rest of the tears, smiling with relief and happiness.

"Thank you Pa...."

I hugged Papa back.

Thank God, this matter is over, as little as the story of my journey with the Great is finally finished, so many lessons and wisdom that I have learned, and I hope, and I hope, that,, may the Lord find his happiness as soon as possible...So that the guilt that exists in me will soon pass, and Aunt Ruri can immediately get the best daughter-in-law according to her hopes and desires.

I will always pray for that.

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6 Months passed from that day,

I never got a message from the great again like I used to, precisely after the last message He sent the last night.

As well as the phone and video calls from him, all seemed to disappear without a trace.

It seems that Agung has indeed deliberately closed off access to everything related to me,,

in fact, all of his social media accounts have never been active again.

Honestly, I really feel lost, lost the figure of someone who has always been there for me, the figure who is always patient and attentive to me.

But yeah, never mind, wasn't this what I wanted.

Once upon a time, I tried to contact him just to ask him the news, but Agung did not pick up my phone, it seems He was reluctant to hear my voice again, even when I sent him a message, Great just read it, just read it, never returned it until this moment.

I didn't mean to tease her anymore, or give her any more hope, but at least my friends still wanted me to be together... So as not to be interrupted just because of romance.

But yeah, that's it..

maybe this is the best decision he took, maybe in this way Agung can arrange his heart again to move on faster than his feelings for me first, he said, I'm not gonna bother him anymore just so time will get me used to losing him.

The last news from Mama who still often communicates with Aunt Ruri said that Agung was still at home in Batam,,

I don't know, what's underlying the reason for being there for almost half a year, is it just an excuse to stay away from me or maybe his heart is already adrift of someone who's there?

If this relationship is all right, I'd love to hear the story of who and what kind of woman that makes her stay there longer.

Again, I miss those days.

I got out of my bed, sat cross-legged looking at the window, the rain was still falling slowly from last night, the weather felt 2 times cooler than the usual mornings of the week, making my laziness attack and forcing me to stay on top of the bed and undo my intention to immediately shower and leave the room.

Still at 7 am, it's a sign that there are still 3 hours left, before Dirga came to pick me up to visit his Uncle's house to introduce me to his family, which he promised at 10 o'clock,, which he promised me,,

I never imagined, today for the first time Dirga came to my house.

It was hard for me to believe, everything was like a dream.

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