Seabadi Edelwai..

Chapter 195 Inner conflict

After that day, everything went back to normal, between Me and Vina there was no progress..

We're still a pair of teenagers who are always together without clarity,,

Although the whole class, even one school knows about our closeness and always considers us the best couple, but that does not make our relationship certain.

Time goes on, the beautiful days without ties stay up until this second, 3 years pass, it really feels so fast.

Even now, fear is controlling my heart, a worry that increasingly shackles a soul that feels empty.

I'm afraid after this, I can't look at him anymore, especially when my Dad and Mom stopped me last night, about how my studies went.

For a moment I leaned back and tried to reminisce about last night's conversation.

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"Dear baby, I'm sorry I haven't been a good father to Abi"

hearing that sentence, I gulped, my premonition saying something bad was going on.

I tried to be calm listening to Dad's words.

"Our economy seems to be difficult to stabilize, Dad and Ibuk just got bad news, Dad and Ibuk became one of the hundreds of names of employees who got PHK, inevitably Dad and I have to find another job,"

Hearing that, my esophagus felt choked, it deserves 3 days they are at home with me breakfast, lunch and dinner..

I just had this happiness but tonight I found out that they were in trouble.

I looked at my Mom and Dad's faces in turn,

"But you don't worry, Mom and Dad got another job offer"

Hearing that my smile grew, I,

A glimmer of hope was present in my heart.

"Where's Yah?"

I'm just impatient.

"Out of town,,"

The deg!!

Instantly my heart fell apart, scattered,,

in the city alone, I very rarely meet them, how is it outside the city?

"How is Abi Yah? is Abi moving in?"

I asked with a trembling voice to hold back the cry.

Mom quickly hugged me,

"Pardon us Abi, for now.. We have not been able to invite Abi, Our work has not settled but Ibuk promised. only 2 years, after that, Ibuk will pick Abi, and we will be together again"

My tears spilled until I wet my clothes.

"Dear, dear Abi, I'm the same Ibuk, in these two years will continue to move around until the contract expires and the placement of the territory, you must understand yes, you live first in the house of Uncle Usman, Father promise..This is only 2 years, and one more, I have registered Abi at High School Free place not far from Uncle Usman's house..

Abi boy, must be strong.can not be weak, can not be whiny.ya.."

Repeatedly the kisses of Father and Mother filled all parts of my face.

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Ervina Delia, a sweet girl who came suddenly in my heart knocking and now ensnaring me in a feeling I could never reveal.

3 Years with him without me knowing how he really felt about me.

keep guessing the same feeling without ever daring to ask the truth.

This morning at the dinner table, I looked at my father and my mother who were tidy,

"Abi, taking her graduation doesn't have to be with the parents? you see, I'm the same mom this morning has to sign a contract"

I gulped, then nodded slowly.

I've gotten used to it myself, even after this I have to be even stronger without them.

Want to not want I have to get used to adulthood because of circumstances.

After breakfast, the,

With the bus, I set off for school which will soon become a memory.

Accidentally standing beside the school gate waiting for Vina's arrival.

Before long, a car stopped and someone I was waiting for got off.

Our eyes are linked, but the mouth does not greet each other, just a smile and a small nod from him that seems to be a signal that this longing is already very unstoppable.

If he knew, I would feel the same longing, blushing and blushing.

Staring at Vina's increasingly distant steps made me decide to calm my troubled heart in a quiet place where else if not the library.

All the feelings are mixed, so I can no longer explain in words how my current mood is.

Almost 10 minutes sitting in a quiet library.

Suddenly,

"Hi... Is it serious?"

A greeting from someone I've always missed.

I closed the book I was holding and smiled looking at Vina.

"Nothing is more serious than when I look at you"

My words make Vina's face blush.

Embarrassedly, Vina chose to sit next to me.

"Vin, where did you go after this?"

I asked in my heart to hope Vina mentioned the name of the school that Dad mentioned last night, even though I knew it was impossible.

"I went to Putra Bangsa High School, you?"

My guess is right, there's no way Vina's chosen SMA that far.

"Ehm. means, we're not together anymore"

I breathe heavily.

"Where are you going?"

vina looked at me seriously.

"My parents registered me at Merdeka Raya High School"

My answer is not excited.

"Isn't school that far from your home?"

I had also expected Vina to say that.

"Yes Vin, after this I will stay at my brother's house close to the school, because my parents will soon be moving jobs"

"Ehm... Why don't you just move with your parents?"

"Can't, my parents' work is not settled will often move places"

Instantly silence us,

The atmosphere of silence, just second by second the wall clock that witnessed our nervousness this morning, there is still much that I actually talk to Vina, but dear, the call from the loudspeaker roused us from silence and forced us to end our togetherness.

"Eh..Dir, I think it's gonna start"

Vina moved from beside me.

"Ehm... Vin, wait....."

I blocked Vina's arm to stop her from leaving me.

Vina.

"Vin.. go home later, I'll wait for you here again..."

my door.

The confused Vina just nodded then walked away leaving me who was still sitting holding the book.

I'm feeling like I don't have the spirit and the grip anymore, if after this I can no longer meet Vina, maybe forever will be lonely friends, lonely, caca's move alone was enough to make me lose the place to share my story, and I also had to accept the fact that I would swallow long-term longings to both my parents, she said, and now I also have to be ready if after today, maybe Vina will only be a part of my past.

I don't know if I'm ready for that..

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