Seabadi Edelwai..

Chapter 199 was like a nightmare

Almost 2 hours in the hospital's quiet hallway, silent and silent.

All who are here are busy with their own anxieties and thoughts, including I who from the beginning was busy asking for the health of Mother to God.

I can't imagine if anything bad happened to my mom tonight.

I don't know what it would be like to destroy me, if it happened.

I glanced at the silent Father looking down with wet eyes.

Only occasionally did I hear Dad's heavy sighs that felt like a heartbreaking rhythm.

Anxiety clearly emanated from the faces around me, anxiety and even fear that was all I felt even though my heart still hoped that everything would be fine,

All eyes turned on the ICU room door that suddenly opened, all running over, and approaching.

The doctor and some nurses came out with a sad face.

"How's My Wife Doc?"

Ask Dad with a tense face.

The doctor breathed,

"I'm sorry, we've done everything, but it looks like God wills something else"

Hearing that, the cries all broke, even the hysterical cries of Bik Umi had echoed adding to the mood.

Like lightning striking, instantly my body was limp, trembling, my heart felt pierced by a sharp pointed object, very sick.

Uncle Usman and Bik Umi ran in, and approaching Ibuk's bed, I was dazed just standing on the doorstep watching Bik Umi's broken cry, while Bella and Cia hugged me.

My eyes turned to Father who was silent at the peek leaning against the wall.

Slowly I walked closer to Dad.

His eyes were empty, though his tears continued to pour out.

"Dad.... Dad... What's wrong??"

I screamed when I saw Dad holding his chest bowed and finally fell.

BRUCK!!

"Yeahhhhh.......!!!! Ayahh.... Bikkk!! Uncles...!!!"

I shouted to Uncle Usman and Bik Umi who were inside,

Bik Umi and Uncle Usman were shoved out.

"Oh Allah, Abi... Why dad?? Doctor!!! Doctor!!!"

yell Bik Umi calling the Doctor.

The atmosphere that had been calm, turned tense again.

After checking,

The doctor stated that Dad died of a heart attack.

My sky was suddenly dark, my world was crumbling and my hopes were falling apart.

With a heart that is no longer shaped I sit in front of the bodies of my parents who have been lying stiff in the middle of Uncle Usman's house after being brought home from the hospital to be buried.

There were no tears dripping from my eyes, only a pushy, empty look considering that after today I will never again see and hug my parents for the rest of my life.

Cia and Bella sat next to me, once in a while their hands clasped my fingers, and rubbing my back strengthened me.

How will my life go?

What about my future?

What if I miss you?

How am I supposed to live without them by my side?

I felt a tremendous pain slicing through my heart.

Especially when looking at the bodies of my parents who began to be forgiven.

Even the last kiss I had for my parents made my heart feel squeezed by hundreds of sharp thorns.

Pain, pain, pain mixed into one.

I felt I could no longer tread the earth, my body as light as it floated, I don't know what to do anymore when I watch my parents getting into one hole and starting in a wet dirt pile.

I felt my head go round and round, my eyes starting to get blurry, dark and....

"Pig.... Bi... Abi. wake up Bi, wake up Bii.... Wake Nak...."

Slowly I tried to open my eyes, as my ears popped and heard a soft voice along with repeated touches on my face.

Bik Umi looked at me.

"Alhamdulillah...."

Bik Umi exclaimed, wiping her tears.

my eyes watched the room where I lay, and in a few seconds I finally knew I was in the room, one by one I noticed the people who were surrounding me.

Once I thought if I'd just had a nightmare and was grateful I finally woke up.

But. I looked back at them one by one, black clothes and black hoods...Is this real? Is this not a nightmare?

then... does that mean, I'm really an orphan now?

I try to remember what happened to me.

Yep... I passed out at my parents' funeral,

I turned my face away, and these tears finally melted.

Tightness and pain impede me in a dress of sorrow.

Fathering... Ibuka... I still need you guys...

my mind ?

"Abi..say your heart Son, strengthen your mind, so that they are calm there, Abi do not worry, Aunt, Uncle and all who are here all love Abi"

Bik Umi stroked my head.

"Yes Abi.... I'm the same Cia will always be there for Abi.."

Connect Bella.

I quietly did not answer a word, it still feels heavy tongue to talk.

Even to think I can't.

it all felt like a dream, so fast without leaving any impressions and messages.

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