Seabadi Edelwai..

Chapter 122 Great Sincerity

In the room,

I put the paper bag on the table, while I prepared to change my sleeping pajamas.

After I was in bed, I stared at the screen of my phone for a long time, waiting for news from Agung who would send me a song to listen to using the headphones he had just given me earlier.

Actually my heart is still wondering about what song will be sent Agung to have to use headphones to listen to it.

For nearly half an hour, no messages were sent, while my eyes showed no signs of sleepiness.

I tried to open up the mobile phone gallery, and my finger stopped sliding, my heart was shaking, staring at a photo.

Of the many photos that we took using Dirga's phone, only this one photo I accidentally sent to my phone for me to keep as a memory.

I looked at the picture for a long time, how happy we were both at that time, clearly visible from the smile that unfolded on each other's faces.

I took a deep breath and then chose to delete the photo.

"I'm sorry Dir, who can no longer keep our memories, I'm sorry heart. forced to give up the feeling that I can't maintain anymore. This is the best.."

I murmured softly with the pain and pain that sipped slowly in the heart.

Shortly after, two messages came in.

"Relations,,"

I then sat down cross-legged opening the message with a pounding heart.

Two song files, seeing that I grabbed the headphones on the table and went back up to the bed and connected the device to my phone.

As soon as the first song was played, my body felt weak, my heart felt slashed, this song was a song that Dirga performed during my engagement event at that time.

Why did the Lord send this song?

whatdoes thatmean?

I turned off the song, and shutting my eyes set a sudden, chaotic feeling after listening back to the song, making me recall Dirga, whereas right now I'm trying my hardest to forget her.

I looked back at my phone, saw the second file, there was a hesitation to play it, but I was also curious about the second song that Agung sent.

With a stubborn heart and trembling hands, I press play, I,

I gasped when the intro notes began to play, I know this song.The song tells a story where a person can forget his past, even though he has been with someone else.

And when verse by verse the song I heard, a sense of tightness suddenly pressed down on my heart, sorrow and pain seethed in my soul.

Unknowingly, my tears fell slowly, flowing down my cheeks,

the tightness in my heart made me unable to hear verse by verse any longer.

I turned off the song and put the headphones back on the table.. I sobbed myself holding a chest that felt narrowed, sick and squeezed.

"God, why is it so painful, is it so hard for me to forget the feelings I no longer want to feel"

Shortly after, my phone rang,

incoming call from Agung.

I wiped my wet cheek.

"Hello... Vin.."

Grand Sapa.

my esophagus felt choked, powerless to answer the greeting, when weeping and sobs were still left.

A moment of silence, Agung called me back.

"Win..."

"Yes..."

That's the only word I can say.

"You crying??"

I didn't answer.

"Cry. let the tears flow freely.release all the flavors you keep.don't hold back, thank you for following my advice to listen to this song with headphones on at bedtime,, you know,, I just want to know your reaction, if suddenly your eyes get wet, maybe there is still a remnant of the past that is not finished that is forcing re-entry into your mind and heart, he said, the rest of the past is someone who once made you very happy, and now you have to let go because it is not possible.

Therefore, weep, let your eyes be wet, do not wipe... "

Agung's words were very slow and flowed gently into the ear to seep to the heart, making my sobs become more and more so.

I don't know what the meaning of the sentences uttered Agung, which must have been the sentence as if digging up again all the feelings that I had painstakingly buried deep.

Long enough to keep quiet, with the call still connected, I don't know if Agung is still there listening to the rest of my cries.

After feeling calmer, I went from the bed to the chair and sat facing the window.

"Goung..."

Sapaku to make sure Agung is still there and hear me.

"Yes..."

The answer, he also heard his heavy breath.

"Why are you doing this? what was? what's made you feel different these last 2 months,,"

"You feel my change?"

"Yes.a very felt, exactly earlier...I really feel like you're weird"

"Vina, actually I haven't changed, I'm just confused,, "

"Dude? confused why?"

"Bungled by your attitude, how can you have a relationship with Me but your heart is tormented"

"Gung, you mean?!"

My heart beats hearing Grand's reply, cold sweat flooding my body, there is a mixed feeling of worry and fear.

"I've known everything Vin, you still can't forget Dirga and you haven't been sincere with our relationship either.."

"More... I'm..."

"Why are you lying to me Vin, about Dirga's status? if it turns out Dirga is not married let alone have children, even though you already know it"

Great cut my words quickly.

"Gung I can...."

"You still love Dirga, still love Dirga so much..I don't want to be a hindrance to you, I don't want you to give up your happiness for Me, while you don't get that happiness from Me at all."

"Follow Please.Please give me a chance to explain, I..."

"I'm not that bad Vin, I love you. If your happiness is Dirga, not Me."

My tears broke again, this time completely free, not only because of the weight of forgetting Dirga but also because of the words of the Great that felt piercing into the heart.

I can't imagine tomorrow, if Agung really breaks off our engagement, what will happen to my good relationship with both my parents and the Grand Family, especially Aunt Ruri.

"Remove your tears Vin, don't cry anymore.We end this charade, and pursue your true happiness."

I can't answer anything even I can't find a word I can say to Agung.

"bye Vina's..."

Click, connection disconnected.

I cried so much, I never imagined this would happen before, I did not expect tonight Agung very sincerely release Me, but what about Mama? Aunt Ruri? can they accept it?

And... Agung, what really happened, why did Agung know if Dirga had not married? who told him?

Agung also know from where if until now I still can not forget Dirga.

And as for my feelings, on one side I'm happy, I'm happy to be out of the shackles that have bound me all this time, but on the other side, I'm happy,, I do not have the heart of Agung who may be currently broken and heartbroken.

My phone is shaking, one message is coming in..

"Vina.don't worry about Me, I'm fine.and don't wonder why I chose this decision, because to me.. the highest level of loving someone is when we sincerely let go to see them happy."

What is the most heartbreaking message I have ever received from a great man.

I quickly typed a reply.

"I don't know what to say, and I don't know what to do. You're so good, so good.I'm sorry"

Before long, I got a reply back, please,

"There's no need to say anything, about our engagement, let's just say it never happened, I'll talk to Mama, you take it easy... They will understand, After this, I have decided to stay quite a long time in Batam, at least until we are used to it and ready to meet again, with a different status,,"

Agung ended his message, and I no longer reply to him.

Great right, if one day we are reunited, of course with a status that is not the same anymore, and we must be ready, and I know this is not easy for Agung.

Forgetting someone we love let alone first love, it is as difficult as holding back tears that have already pooled in the eyelids, all we have to do is give him time to flow slowly and then wipe him down.

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