Seabadi Edelwai..

Chapter 88 Late love

Dirga turned to me for a moment, then turned his face to look at the Lake in front of him.

"After I'm finished, I focus on working for one year in a fertilizer factory to become a laborer, the next year, My boss advises me to go to college so that my career can rise, after I thought I finally convinced myself that I could, trying to find a university that could go to college while working, Thank God I'm grateful that everything went as expected, I can finish college with my own money"

Dirga looked at me, his smile fluttering making my heart tremble,

yes, the same vibration as the past is still together, as in the beginning of knowing him.

The longing came back, thrashing to be released from the shackles that had been binding him in the heart.

"My youth is too busy Vin, I don't have time to think about having fun indulging myself, let alone wasting time just to approach the women to be invited to date, day by day all I think about is how to get my finances better, and I can quickly finish my studies with a college degree."

Bright Dirga with a look of laughter as if remembering the bitter life path he went through.

I still listen to the story about him carefully.

"You know Vin, there's a major reason that keeps me in my solitude, other than those two things,"

Dirga then touched my hand and held it.

"What?"

Tanyaku.

"The main reason is you! because my heart has been left in your heart"

Dirga pointed at her chest and then turned to point at my chest.

Gluey!

I swallowed, spit,

On the one hand I was so happy to hear that sentence, but on the other hand, my heart was broken when I remembered next week my engagement would take place.

Now confusion is eating away at my brain,

I can't imagine how disappointed Aunt Ruri and Great, as well as Mama, would have been if it had fallen apart.

"Oh my God..Why do you have to be like this, why do you have to meet me again with Dirga at the last moment like this? why should I hear this sweet statement when I'm planning and planning my future with Agung?"

My mind feels like screaming.

"Vin, I'm sorry, if this honesty confused you..I don't mean to worry your heart, I'm not expecting anything since I know you've been happy with Agung, believe me I'm not going to ruin your household, especially to intend to take you from your husband"

Dirga's last words made my eyes wide open,

Oh, my God, so all this time.. Dirga thinks I'm married to Agung?

"Ehm... Dir, you misunderstood me, up to this moment I and Great are not married!"

I said out loud,

Dirga who was bowed lethargic again raised his head and looked at me in disbelief.

"You.....seriously??"

Dirga held both of my shoulders, then switched to cupping his hands in both of my jaws.

I nodded, though the tears could no longer be compromised.

Dirga quickly pulled my body, grabbed me tightly, and kissed my head.

"Tell me this is not Vin's dream, tell me what I just heard is reality, quickly say it!!! you know, I'm happy, amazingly happy, this really almost drives me crazy, crazy for being too happy,,"

He exclaimed with a quivering voice, and trembling hands, his beads of eyes were indeed sparkling.

"Dir, you are not dreaming, I and Great are not married"

My answer.

Dirga smiled widely, her tears dipped, many times she looked at my face, rubbed my cheeks and the back of my head then re-hugged me.

"Vin, I promise... After today... I will no longer keep you waiting, I will no longer leave you without the clarity you once were, will no longer confuse you with my attitude, I promise... I promise Vin"

Whisper Dirga in my ears.

"I'm sorry Dir... I'm sorry.. hiks... hiks..."

My sobs made Dirga speechless,

Slowly and very slowly, I felt her hands release my body from her arms.

"What's up Vin, why? don't scare me, why are you crying? you also have the same taste as I do, right?? you were expecting this meeting too, right?? vin said, Do you love me??"

Urge Dirga to hold my hand.

"I... I'm not married to Agung yet, but...."

My tongue feels stiff and stiff to express this fact.

"But what is Vin??!"

"But next week is my engagement day with Agung"

My heart ached, when that sentence had to slide off my lips.

Dirga was silent, her hands were out of my grasp, her face that was so happy now turned gray, seen Dirga biting her lower lip, with her head down.

Silence, now we are silent trying to dive into each other's wounds and sorrows.

Shortly thereafter,

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry Vin, I shouldn't be like this, I should be happy to hear this happy news, Congratulations... The Great deserves you, and so do you, deserve the Great, you are compatible.. I'll definitely come, if you'd like to invite me to witness your special day"

Dirga said the sentence with reddened eyes, as well as trembling lips.

I could not hold back the tears that had calmed, now the pain came again, like being hit by a sharp sword, pain, pain, pain, pain, the pain of all united creates wounds that may not heal for the rest of my life.

All this happened in my own fault! had I not been in a hurry to make the decision to accept the Great at that time, perhaps today would have been an unforgettable history of happiness for me and Dirga.

Perhaps today between Me and Dirga is sure to be the happiest pair of human children in the world.

Perhaps the tears that are spilling tonight are tears of happiness not tears of regret as they are today.

But because of it all, I can only swallow disappointed, and now I have to give up the love I had hoped for the most,

"It's all my fault!! my fault!! my fault!!"

I unceasingly condemn and blame myself for what is happening right now.

"I'm sorry..I'm sorry..I'm sorry...."

With a weeping already broken, I pummeled his body, buried my head in his chest, drowned my sorrow there, as if to tell me how broken my heart is now.

"You're not wrong, you deserve your life and your happiness, and that's with the Great"

Dirga stroked my hair.

I lifted my head, looked at his face, and shook my head.

"Why is Dir now...? why didn't all those words I heard from your mouth?? You know Dir, from a long time ago..I've been waiting for that!! why have you come to see Me only now, why not yesterday - where every second of my life, always hoping for your presence?? why???!!!"

I screamed while hitting his chest that had been soaked by my tears.

Dirga hugged me back, though,

"I'm sorry Vin, I know. It's my fault for letting you wait too long, I'm sorry... Really, really... I never knew you were expecting me all this time"

"You evil Dirgaaa!! you're evil!!!"

I moved on, and prepared to leave Dirga who was still feeling guilty.

"Vina wait!!!"

He quickly blocked my arm holding me back from leaving.

"Please, if this is our last meeting, please don't have any anger between us"

I turned my body to face him, wiped my tears, then reached out my hand.

Dirga welcomed my hand and pulled it back in her arms.

"Please don't cry anymore.. I never know how many tears have been wasted when we are both in waiting, so I beg you... I always pray for your happiness"

Dirga rubbed my cheeks and under my eyes, the last time he pulled both cheeks to form a smile.

"I drove you home to the cafe earlier...."

abugn.

I'm nodding.

On the motor, after,

Dirga pulled my arm and wrapped my hand around her waist.

I put my head on the back of his field.

I enjoy the remnants of the warmth of his love that I may no longer be able to feel after today.

Dirga drove the bike very slowly, enjoying the togetherness that was almost exhausted, witnessed by the night wind that caressed the cold as our hearts.

Sometimes I feel her hands rubbing my arms.

Until the parking lot of the cafe is already very quiet, only my car is parked there, visible door of the cafe that has also been closed.

I got off the bike, walked in front of myself.

"I'm home..."

My speech.

Dirga grabbed both my hands and kissed them alternately.

"Be careful..."

The reply.

"You too, take care of yourself. Keep the spirit and. if the weight in your heart, you do not need to force to attend next week"

Tears were back on my cheeks.

"Ssttt, no more crying, smile... I'm strong, and you have to be strong, I'm coming!"

Dirga put her index finger on my lips, then rubbed my tears with her index elbow.

I took a deep breath holding back the tightness that plagued my heart.

Then turned around leaving Dirga, running towards the car door.

I am not strong enough to withstand sobs, tightness and tears that are increasingly flowing.

I didn't think Dirga was chasing me back to the front door of the car.

"Vin...."

Dirga hugged me from behind,

"Before you truly become a Grand Fiancee, let Me give you my full love until Sunday, I want to spend that little time with love and togetherness, even if it is just one week, I want to spend that little time with love and togetherness,, allow me to make up for all the time that was once wasted, would you like it??"

I did not answer, I slowly let go of Dirga's embrace and immediately got into the car and then drove away leaving her still riveted.

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