Seabadi Edelwai..

Chapter 71 Time passed

POV >>> VINA

The cool night weather due to heavy rain that flushed from day, making me prefer to spend time with activities on mattresses rolled up blankets.

Just reading my collection of novels that I haven't read from the beginning of buying.

Deliberately amusing yourself that is not okay, actually,

About my expectations for Dirga, which are still very large, I had to temporarily remove for the sake of a sanity of the soul.

Continuing to think of Dirga makes me almost crazy, imagining being with Dirga in every incident that happens in my days is the same as creating a scar.

Should I follow Tari's advice to open my heart to Agung, or try to give Daniel a chance to go deeper into my heart?

But what if Dirga came back one day to question my heart, could I hurt the innocent, or shake my head at Dirga, whom I consider to be in the past?

Ahh,

I closed the novel that was opening in front of my face.

Then I chose to break my body, and close my eyes.

When you wake up and open your eyes, this feeling is better.

I have to admit, first love is a hard feeling to take for granted, but to wait for uncertainty is as difficult as walking in the middle of a storm.

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Time passed by, walking with a thousand hopes that were never extinguished,

Likewise with the shadow of Dirga who never stopped following wherever I stepped.

Days change, months pass until year after year I continue to run still with the hope that somehow can come true.

I am no longer a Schoolboy, now my status has changed to staff employees in a private office that is quite bona fide

Still in my Town.

As I remember, Elza once said to me, if Tari chose to go to college while working at a private university, maybe that's what makes Tari busy and do not have free time to occasionally meet and gather with us again.

In fact, if he knew..

I miss him, and want to tell him as much as I used to, but what to say, all contacts disappeared and none of them could be contacted even including the social media that suddenly disappeared from my friend list.

Elza and Daniel and I still chose the same college, while Nina, decided to get married a year after graduating from High School, and she is currently blessed with a pair of twins, her husband an ASN.

Elza is now serious about her online business, which is in the world of beauty, while Daniel successfully became one of the employees of BUMN.

And Diki who is now transformed into an ustadz with a religious appearance.

Our communication is still very well established, sometimes when on holiday, we always take the time to stay together.

Oh yes, I forgot to tell you about Agung who has now returned to Kotaku and settled down here, building a mushrooming Cafe business, and some young children's clothing distros that are always crowded with visitors.

My life is going very well, my career, finances and friendships and family all feel so smooth without any gaps.

It's just, for matters of the heart..

Until this moment, I cannot open my heart to anyone, not because I choose too much, only it seems the problem is still the same, I still keep the Dirga name in my heart.

And I myself never knew when I could take that name out of my heart even to this very second, though I had not the slightest word of it.

Sometimes, I feel like I want to end this hope and move forward into a relationship with someone and get married, but is it possible that I can live it?

It feels unfair if I live a relationship but my heart still holds a longing for others.

I don't want to be evil, I don't want to hurt.

that thought again undoes my intention to open my heart.

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